Sunday, December 31, 2017

I Let You Go (Last Yodaism of 2017)

Mareez Reyes once said, ~One of the hardest lessons in life is letting go. Whether its guilt, anger, love, loss or betrayal. Change is never easy. We fight to hold on and we fight to let go.~ If you think about it, when it comes to the turning over of a new year once again it's in a sense like a regeneration of sorts and each one of us is The Doctor. Essentially, every year we're given the opportunity to regenerate into a whole new person, so to speak, to the point where sticking to a resolution for the new year is considered to be a battle within itself we either face head on or struggle with entirely so much so you run away. For it can certainly be a tough and furstrating situation indeed at the very start knowing you'll be tested mentally, emotionally, physically, and not to mention spiritually as well.

As I said before, every year we're given the opportunity to regenerate into a whole new person, so to speak, to the point where sticking to a resolution is considered to be a battle within itself we either face head on or struggle entirely so much so you run away. True, it can be quite difficult to stay focused in wanting to achieve set goals for yourself knowing there are countless Dalek-like distractions that could in all intense and purposes exterminate one's own journey into trying to become a far better person. Of course, it's a continuous journey year after year in which a person reflects back sometimes not by choice on the many faces of the past you can either fondly smile back on or shed tears of sadness. What is primarily comes down to is having the determination to see it through or run away because of how so overwhelming it is.

Without a doubt, it's during one year to year journey in their own etaphorical TARDIS in which it's much bigger on the inside regarding the deep vastness of your thoughts, feeling, and/or emotions. Thinking about it further deep emotions such as anger, confusion, betrayal, bitterness, utter heartbreak, etc. are remnants of a past self that may still remain underneath the surface and haven't really let have let go as certain mental, emotional, and physical memories are a unwanted haunting reminder that continue to resonate like a nightmare you so desperately want to wake up from. Unfortunately, its a sad state of affairs when the pain is so humanly unbearable you want to shout out with angered tears for everybody to hear in somewhat similar fashion of the 11 Doctor in a memorable scene of the episode Rings Akhaten.

Let me ask this question as it pertains to the bed buds/gal pals or should I say companions you've in a sense traveled across the universe with over the years? Are they still companions of yours or did you end up making the difficult decision to part way with him/her/them? Here another question. do you still remember their names and faces? You see, life and truly worthwhile friends are a rarity to hold on to whereby no matter how long you haven't seen/talked/interacted with each other falling into the same old fun filled, mischievous routine is easy. However, what's never really easy is making the decision to part ways with friends for the betterment of your own mental and emotional sanity like encountering a Weeping Angel and with an eventual blink of an eye they're gone for from your life never to heard or seen from again.

In retrospect, 2018 provides everybody the chance to push the quintessential reset button and experience a whole new set of unknown adventures lying in wait for each one us. Granted, whether it involves the same companions you've been traveling with for years or much different ones it will be considerably interesting to say the least. Fortunately, for some people they have a fantastic outlook to the new year with a 9th Doctor like vigor while others feel it's not getting here fast enough so much so you would gladly have your mind wiped like Donna by the 10th doctor in the episode Journey's End. Ultimately, this year has been a journey of more highs than lows and vice versa as its just a matter of perspective involving our own personal journey of life. In the end, I think each of us can unanimously agree and say to 2017 it's been a pleasure but now I let you go

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