2 Sides Of 1 Heart

Someone once said, ~Life is too ironic to fully understand. It takes sadness to know what happiness is. Noise to appreciate the silence and absence to value presence.~ Without a doubt, there is a complex duality of good-bad, light-dark, and hope-hopelessness in life, especially when it involves matters of the heart. Oftentimes what one is trying to do is establish an innate balance of opposing/clashing forces pertaining to thoughts, feelings, and/or emotions that push-pull you in so many directions it has the propensity to leave any person in every sense of the word drained. For it can most definitely be a tiring situation indeed to keep yourself from being mentally, emotionally, physically and spiritually overcome by an unseen inner chaotic battle of the heart that has the ability to throw the balance you're trying to achieve completely off.

Let me ask you this question, does the earlier sentiment ring true that it takes sadness to know what happiness is? I think it's safe to say for a number of individuals they believe it as it pertains to having to continually experience utter heartbreak then ultimately finding/meeting the sheer happiness of love/true love. Of course, being able to deal with the duality of bad and good within your heart as there is a seemingly back and forth shift of the positive-negative outlook in regards to a potentially strong, worthwhile relationship happening. In other words, you don't want the amount of negativity outweighing the positive thus swallowing you whole, in a manner of speaking, leaving an overwhelming sense of constant dread. What it primarily comes down to is focusing on your present leading to the future and not always reliving past pain.

If you think about it, within the human heart there's a duality of light and dark where a war is waging, so to speak, in trying to in a sense silence the noise and at same time not get lost/swallowed up in the darkness of that noise. Fear, doubt, worry, confusion, frustration, disappointment, anger, utter contempt, self loathing, cynicism, etc. are as whole a representation of the noise constantly echoing within yourself. Thinking about it further, it's an internal darkness so tortuous, scary, and getting increasingly louder you're struggling/battling to keep one's own sanity intact. You see, it's that quintessential inner voice magnifying the noise so much so you want to be free from one's own self imposed dark isolation. Essentially, you end up considerably exhausted in every sense of the word whereby the light/silence of true happiness either flickers or grows dim.

Without a doubt, there's truth in being able to appreciate absence that will eventually bring tremendous value to the presence in the form of that certain special someone. Oftentimes, the parallels in the duality of hope and hopelessness coincide with being conflicted dealing with a haunting absence of a loving partner while appreciating the freedom of doing your own thing. True, life provides you with distractions giving you the opportunity to take the time to enjoy your independence as it potentially strengthens the hope instead of the hopelessness inside one's own heart. For the most part, you have to take notice/advantage of those aforementioned distractions and not let yourself wallow in your own personal issues. Hey, it's just a matter of having a clear understanding of seeing the value of living the single life until the presence of hope finally stands in front of you.

In retrospect, it can certainly be quite difficult to attain a deep understanding of the sheer complex duality that is our heart. Granted, as you try to achieve any sort of inner balance there comes a point where it can teeter totter from comforting peace to destructive chaos. Unfortunately, that shift in the balance within the internal teeter totter that is the human heart is absolutely unpredictable and can happen in an instant like a snap of a finger. Yet, even though everyone has the same inner duality of the heart there is an unexplainable difference in how each one of us deals with going through it. Ultimately, it all depends on how it's handled as you can be overly complicated but at the same time easily simplistic if that makes any kind of sense at all. In the end, you have to realize there are more than 2 sides of 1 heart and when you do you'll gain a far better perspective regarding the duality of your forever best friend's heart.