Here I Stand

Someone once said, ~Friendship is the bridge between lonely and loved, between a glance and a gaze. It stretches from the fog into sunshine, hopelessness into faith, between despair and joy. It crosses the chasm from hell to heaven, from God to man, and from you to me.~ Essentially, there is an in between place that every person has been in before or is in now, which like the above quote is considered a bridge where we basically stand smack dab in the middle. For that metaphorical bridge can most definitely represent a person's heart as it "stands" there in the middle deciding on which direction to take when it pertains to a special someone. Let me ask you this question, how many of you are standing in the middle of your own personal bridge as we speak?

If you think about it, a person can spend so much time walking/running one's metaphorical bridge that he or she has no earthly idea where they are going. Its like chasing after a dream, so to speak, that has seemingly gone on for a lifetime. We all know or have some idea who we want to be with and yet there is that relentless voice in the back of one's mind that is telling you its a bad idea. For those initial seeds of doubt can lead a person to go back and forth not only within your heart but within your emotions as well. Let me tell you something, its not a fun experience whatsoever being in that kind of endless wandering back and forth leading to absolutely nowhere, which is a place that you never want to be in, trust me on this.

Without a doubt, when it comes to potential and/or signifant relationships the bridge that every person is standing on can be a long tedious trek as we look at the vastness of an ongoing road. For there are primarily two directions in which we all have looked or are looking at and its those two directions that are a representaion of the past and future, with ourselves standing in the middle which repesents the present. A present, where each one of us are teeter tottering within our own heart to either stay back or move forward but due to one's fears it makes you stay back not letting you move forward to whoever that person may be that is either standing up close or far beyond the road ahead.

There comes a point when you stand on your own individual bridge, certain things tend to mean alot more than it did in the past. We've all simply glanced at the water reflected sun when crossing a bridge but never really took the time to really look at it. However, when you start gazing into that water reflected sun you start seeing the calming beauty of it all as things start to make sense for you, which makes one's journey that much more enjoyable. For the heavy fog that's been clouding one's direction and mind has initally been lifted to where the hopelessness and dispair that you feel eventually turns to faith and joy. Yet, the question remains does that person feel the same way or is he or she on a different bridge and going in a different direction?

Gillian Anderson's character Dana Scully(X-Files) once said, ~Well, it seems to me that the best relationships--the ones that last-- are frequently the ones that are rooted in friendship. You know, one day you look at the person and you see something more than you did the night before. Like a switch has been flicked somewhere. And the person who was just a friend is...suddenly the only person you can ever imagine yourself with.~ In retrospect, I've stood on my personal bridge many time before, but I found myself simply walking away knowing who was beyond it due to my own fears. In the end, I find myself standing at that bridge again in which I say/think to myself its here I stand once again, now which direction do I take and my answer...I'm not going to walk away this time.