Survivor

Henry Adams once said, ~You say that love is nonsense...I tell you it is no such thing. For weeks and months it is a steady physical pain, an ache about the heart, never leading one by night or day, a long strain on one's nerves like a toothache or rheumatism, not tolerable at any one instant, but exhausting by its steady drain on the strength.~ Let me ask you this question, how many of you have experienced or are experiencing a time of pain and heartache that has left you physically, mentally, and emotionally drained within your heart? For its that type of pain and heartache that sticks with you affecting you in such a way you're not only tired of all the games/bs, but you also come to a point where you're basically fed up with the entire male/female species who, in your mind, are just a bunch of liars, cheaters, a**holes, or whatever the case may be.

Without a doubt, it's a difficult situation indeed to endure the painful heartbreak of either being cheated on, embarrassingly dumped, treated with disrespect, etc. all-the-while trying to keep a smile on your face to show those close to or around you that you're fine, which is what many women tend to do. You see, it's the emotional attachment women hold on to and is sometimes hard to break when it pertains to a particular guy that can in all instruments and purposes suck the life out of them causing great distress, which can be inherently seen by the tears being shed filled with a plethora of mixed emotions/feelings like anger, bitterness, contempt, spite, hatred, confusion, love, self pity, doubt, regret, etc. What it comes down to is the wasted emotional energy you've put into a relationship that has only two feet in, so to speak, instead of four.

As said before, the pangs of love can oftentimes be a long strain on one's nerves like a toothache or rheumatism. It would be safe to say there have been many of you whose nerves have been strained involving a past relationship leaving you frazzled to the point that if the potential/significant other you are currently with does something remotely similar it gets under your skin. It gets under your skin, so much so, you lash out verbally and nonverbally to where the person of interest has absolutely no idea what is going on, whereby causing you to work yourself up into a frenzy essentially sapping what's left of the physical strength in your heart. Thinking about it, whether it's something big like breaking your trust or something insignificant like laughing at an unfunny situation at your expense can truly have long lasting effects, especially for women.

For the question can be asked to those who finally were able to wake up, in a manner of speaking, after tolerating for so long being in a relationship for months and even years that wasn't going anywhere. It's a sad situation indeed when only one person is trying hard and doing everything in their power to make the relationship work while the other person is just half heartedly working at it or not at all. There most definitely comes a point where so many questions are raised that run through your mind that it can become mentally exhausting figuring out those particular answers, which you may very well be asking yourself right now that weigh heavily on your mind. Questions such as: Am I wasting my time with this person? Do I deserve better? Do I see a future with this person? Can I count on this person to be there whenever I need him/her the most?

In retrospect, there are so many positive aspects to love that one tends to ignore what the negative aspects can do. The pain, depression, suffering, inner turmoil, the outright insanity of dealing with what's in our heart are just some of the things you don't want to endure and yet its what each one of us have to face even though you don't want to. In some aspect, it's considered a trial by fire as you have to experience the bad of talking through the flames of hurtful rejection before you experience the good of feeling like you're floating on cloud nine, which is what every person wants to be on. In the end, if you’re able to endure past relationships that have left you physically, emotionally, as well as, mentally weak and yet you find that reserve energy/strength to still keep on going in order to one day meet that special someone I say you're a survivor.