I Swear

Someone once said, ~Love is the greatest feeling you will ever have, yet it is also one of the greatest sorrows. There is so much suffering, but then there are times when the crying, pain, and headache is worth it. Those moments are perfect, they are right. Those moments make all the suffering worthwhile. It's those moments we should live for.~ Without a doubt, one of the most difficult things in life to experience is not knowing if the person you feel so strongly for has those same feelings for you. For it's a tough and frustrating situation indeed to be in because the longer you talk to, are around, and/or hang with that person one's feelings grow increasingly stronger to the point where every beat of your heart absolutely hurts.

If you think about it, a woman more so than a guy, has that proverbial intuition in which they know when a certain amount of attention is focused on her. Yet, there is an uncertainty as to whether or not the attention she is receiving is positive or negative, which can most definitely be seen by the look in her eyes. Eyes that are considered windows to the soul that if a guy looks hard enough can read countless questions, which weigh heavily on not only her mind, but also in her heart as well. Questions such as: Will I be able to trust him? Will he make promises he intends to keep? Will he treat me with respect? It's these questions, plus a whole lot more that all women want answered and hopefully some guy out has all the answers.

Oftentimes, as a guy, you feel as if you're always going to be two steps behind that special someone of interest and the only thing you're going to be to her is just a mere shadow. A shadow that tends to have hidden with the darkness heartbreak, tears of sadness, frustration, anger, and the sometimes flickering hope that is initially kept alive by her smile, which just illuminates the seemingly dreary, as well as, empty void felt not just in your heart, but also in your soul. Let me tell you something, every guy has been in or continues to be in that type of situation to where it's considered a neverending cycle that completely overshadows the possibility of ever experiencing the glowing light of true happiness.

Essentially, a guy like myself will realize that no matter how much you want to be right there by her side both personally and emotionally, just being there as a friend is what's most important, which is to say something to her. For it says that even though you want to be the guy that squashes every doubt in her mind, fills in the cracks of past heartbreak within her heart, makes her believe that dreams do really come true, and re-builds her world that crumbled around her in the past it takes a back seat to just appreciating the fact she is in your life. Trust me when I say its hard to let go of how you feel, but you eventually do as it takes time to move on with your heart to where it doesn't hurt anymore when you see, talk to, or are around her.

In retrospect, love or true love for that matter sometimes means hoping that special someone you wanted to be with finds true happiness even if it means it isn't with you, which hurts, yet you cope the best you can. Whether he or she is in a long lasting stable relationship or living the single life to its fullest, as long as that person is happy by seeing a smile on her face or laughter being heard then life goes on as usual. In the end, it's with genuine honesty you say to the one you love/care about that no matter what happened in the past, what is happening now, or may happen in the future between you and me, I swear to always be there by your side whenever you need me, which is a song by All 4 One that tends to reflects this thought.