If You're Not The One

Someone once said, ~Do you know how confusing you are? You are the most confusing person in the world. Sometimes you confuse me so much, I get confused about why I'm still crazy about you.~ Without a doubt, the life each of us are living is considered to be at times confusing, but when you potentially meet someone or are with someone who touches your heart, as well as, your mind it gets even more confusing. For it's truly and utterly amazing how one person can instill in you a plethora of feelings and emotions that when you experience them individually or all at once it can only be quite confusing, it can drive you nuts just thinking about to the point of going completely insane.

Let me ask you this question, are you interested in or with someone who makes you so confused that it drives you crazy? Crazy in the sense that even though its frustrating and difficult to deal with how you feel about that certain someone who may not share the same feeling as you do and yet despite that you're thankful that person is part of your life. For it truly takes patience to be around or with someone who does or says things that sometimes make no sense whatsoever and yet you can't help but laugh about it. It's what relationships, whether they be friendly, potential, and/or significant, are all about because to be perfectly honest love or true love for that matter would be absolutely boring.

Essentially, there comes a point in all the craziness and confusion that goes on within your heart thoughts of why you're such a loser begin to creep into your mind. You begin to wonder what's wrong with you that you start deconstructing yourself and it inevitably leads you spiraling down towards anger, bitterness, and resentment, which is something that a handful of people have experienced. Thinking about it, every person has probably at some point in their lives done that and has had those thoughts to where they've initially looked back at one's past relationships or attempts at relationships that you've become convinced that you're not only a pathetic loser but also a failure as well.

In any case, it's oftentimes hard to understand why we feel the way we do when it pertains to someone who not just makes you smile but also makes you want to pull your own hair out. Why? Maybe for the first time in your life you find something that feels so real that its scares you to death to fully experience it. It's a sad situation indeed when you go through constant heartbreak that when you truly have /find something special and real in someone you're scared to let everything go. Instead, you hold back/keep inside what's in your heart, which makes you miserable every time you think about him or her. For the question can be asked, as confusing and crazy as this may sound who makes you miserable that it feels good?

In life, someone comes along that just turns one's already crazy and confusing world upside down even more than usual. For that person gives you the chance to say or at least let him or her know how you really feel. It's with genuine honesty that you say that when you are in my thoughts my head hurts because it brings up all the feelings for you that make my heart spin out of control, which makes me absolutely miserable. Miserable in a good way and you know what I've waited all my life to feel this way. Now that it's happened/happening I'm terrified, but the crazy thing I don't want the feeling to ever go away. So, I stand before no longer confused as I know you are the one for me, BUT if you're not the one then I ask you who is? A song that best reflects this thought sung by Daniel Bedingfield