Sunday, July 23, 2006

Break The Walls Down

Candice A. Land once said, ~Each time my heart gets broken or trust is lost, its like a wall is being built around my heart and my brick wall is almost done.~ If you think about it when you experience heartbreak, a broken trust, or even loneliness for that matter within your heart you can most definitely feel like the walls are not only closing in on you but also getting higher to the point you're in complete darkness. It can be a scary situation indeed as you metaphorically can't see what's in front of you and the only sign of light, depending on how high one's wall is, is directly above you. Its at that point, a person can experience or have that feeling of claustrophobia even though one's not in or around any enclosed spaces.

Let me ask you this question, are you now or have you ever felt claustrophobic to the point you're own heart couldn't even breathe, so to speak? It's when you're in that metaphorical dark confined space you find its gets harder and harder to breathe. Why? In a sense, it's like the surrounding darkness grabs hold of your heart, doesn't let go, and slowly squeezes it. No matter how hard you try to struggle and fight, it becomes more difficult to escape as its hold grows increasingly tighter to where you start to slowly lose your own sanity. In order to regain back one's declining sanity, the only logical and reasonable thing to do is climb up and out of the darkness that will inevitably turn you completely insane.

Without a doubt, the climb up can be tough, time consuming, as well as, dangerous and yet it won't stop you from reaching for the light above. In a way, that is how getting through heartbreak is as you begin at rock bottom and then you try working your way out of the sadness, anger, bitterness, loneliness, and/or confusion that one deals with. One has to be reminded though, you can't climb up too quickly because one wrong move will send you tumbling back down to that deep, dark, and seemingly cold abyss, which nobody ever wants to be in. Slow and steady is what it comes down to as you don't want to make any mistakes and oftentimes it truly makes a difference when you eventually reach the top.

Essentially, once you reach the top and sit on the edge you take in all that you see before you as you're able to breathe easier. One can feel victorious at the effort put in and yet sitting there on the edge you, in some ways, feel like the nursery rhyme character we've all sang about as little kids. In some aspect, we can all relate to Humpty Dumpty because every person has experienced a great fall to where it left you and your heart broken and in several pieces. However, unlike the ending to Humpty Dumpty, you and your heart can be put back together again. For the question can be asked, is there someone in your life who has been right by your side every step of the way helping you heal with tender, loving care?

In retrospect, when it comes to heartbreak, a broken trust, and/or loneliness you can feel like that you will never be able to get out from within those four walls to where you feel trapped. A person can spend so much time screaming and yelling for help that all you hear is the echo of your own voice boucing off the walls. It can truly be a frustrating and scary situation for any person in not knowing who will come to their rescue and save them from slipping into madness, in a manner of speaking. In the end, when it comes to the walls that surround you in complete darkness someone special will hear you and break the walls down so that you see, as well as, feel his or her bright, shining love.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

Yeah but I never fell off the wall.