Crazy In Love

Someone once said, ~Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice, but falling in love with you I had no control over.~ Let me ask you a question, can you control love? In my heart of hearts, you can't because quite frankly it's impossible to figure out, to break down, and to try to analyze the mystery that is love. It doesn't have a physical presence and yet it can be felt by millions of people every single day. Each and every person has felt that loss of control when experiencing love; but one also has felt that control destroys you from the inside out. If you think about it, it's the price one pays for either expressing or keeping in the emotions he or she feels in a relationship, whether it's good or bad.

Essentially, a person can't control what he or she has no control over. Oftentimes we say to ourselves that I am not going to fall in love because it's just going to complicate my life even more. One can also add to that the emotions that are felt will become too strong for us to handle to the point where we're completely at the mercy of something that one swore never to be, which is a love struck fool. A fool that finds himself or herself saying things that one never thought he or she would never utter. For we've all fallen victim to having that control, which one worked so hard to keep at an even keel, slip through our fingers because that guy or girl got in our head and eventually in our heart.

For the question can be asked, why do we torture ourselves when it comes to love? The feelings we have for someone that has touched our hearts never really go away and can't be shut off in an instant. In some ways, it’s like a dial that has no off and on switch and you have absolutely no control over it. It’s a tough situation indeed meeting someone that you start to feel deeply and yet you choose to suppress the overwhelming emotions because you don't want to ruin what both of you have by revealing how you feel for him or her. It's kind of like being a prisoner of your own emotions and no matter how badly you want the words of love for that person to escape your mouth, you keep it under lock and key for one's own protection.

In some aspect, we are in complete control when we are in an environment that one knows how to fix. It's within that particular environment, such as work, you know what is about to happen and can adjust to any possible scenarios that could come from it. BUT, when it comes to love, the environment that it has placed you in with that guy or girl can't be controlled because anything and everything can and will go wrong. Every person has been in a situation where one felt like a fish out of water as you were in an environment that felt foreign to you and you had no idea what to do, what to say, or why you are even there in the first place. It's not until you take a close, hard look at that person that you realize that even though you feel uncomfortable, being with him or her makes it all worthwhile.

In retrospect, the one place that we are in control of is in our thoughts because, in there everything goes as planned. For the scenarios that are going in our head are executed to perfection and the glitches that usually happen in reality, don't come to fruition in one's mind. Yet, when love enters a person's heart and mind its a double whammy that nobody can recover from because it has captured two places that will never be the same again. Someone once told me that its better to lose control of your heart than lose control of your mind because it's within your heart that you realize how crazy you are for that person. In the end, it's better to be crazy in love than to be just plain crazy, don't you think?