Burn It Down

Legendary actress Joan Crawford once said, ~Love is fire. But whether it is going to warm your heart or burn your house down, you can never tell.~ If you think about it, when it comes to matters of the heart in regards to utter heartbreak it can, in a sense, feel like your own heart is set on fire. True, the feeling can start off as an initial spark to where it gradually builds up into potentially becoming an intensely raging inferno that's been perpetuated by one's own hand, so to speak. For it's a dangerous situation indeed embracing one's inner arsonist as a person wants to light up then stand back in order to watch your thoughts, feelings, as well as emotions involving a past relationship or relationships in general literally and not to mention figuratively go up in flames.

As I said before, experiencing the feeling of utter heartbreak can start off as an initial spark to where it gradually builds up into potentially becoming an intensely raging inferno that's been perpetuated by one's own hand, so to speak. Thinking about it further, that initial spark best represents anger and the more it builds up from within the sheer intensity of the "heat" increases, whereby becoming incredibly difficult to handle thus getting out of control. In other words, there comes a point while dealing with the mental and emotional turmoil of a break up burn you're faced with the following 2 choices: 1) extinguish the anger altogether before those around you suffer getting burned as well. Or 2.) continue to fuel it even more leaving behind a fiery path of devastation.

Without a doubt, its not just anger that fuels the fire of utter heartbreak as additional "accelerants” can in all intents and purposes fan the flames of devastation, especially if it's a considerably brutal betrayal. Doubt, fear, hatred, worry, loneliness, confusion, frustration, bitterness, spite, disappointment, utter contempt, etc. along with anger are considered to be a volatile mixture. A volatile mixture in which the past, present, and possibly future memories of true happiness don't stand a chance in making it out alive, in manner of speaking, to where only charred ashes remain. Unfortunately, it's a sad state of affairs when a person is in some ways burned beyond recognition within their own heart and is no longer able to feel any kind of pain whatsoever because it has left him/her completely numb.

Let me ask this to those who have been burned countless times by relationships and have the scars to prove it, do you still hold close to the pain to protect yourself? Of course, when anyone gets burned by fire they end up with painful blisters that if they don't heal properly will open up and become infected. I think it's safe to say there are a number of individuals who really haven't let the blisters of past relationships fully heal and even though they're numb all over the individual in question is constantly peeling away inevitably opening up old wounds. Why? Essentially, by doing that it's an uncomfortably reminder that by opening yourself up to expose your vulnerability hurts and it will peel/strip away or should I say change one's overall identity, as well as mindset pertaining to love/true love.

In retrospect, whenever the brutality of utter heartbreak occurs a person holds in a metaphorical sense a Molotov cocktail ready to torch then watch the world burn, in a manner of speaking, both inwardly and outwardly. Granted, it's at the cost of their own personal, mental, emotional, physical and spiritual well-being knowing they're doing this with absolute reckless abandon. You see, it's a quintessential scorched earth mentality that is so methodically deadly and once it begins there's not enough fire fighters imaginable in ever putting it all out. In the end, the most deadliest/dangerous/unpredictable people are definitely the broken-hearted who view the concept of having the lasting love of a forever best friend as something that can easily be set on fire and want nothing more than just to burn it down.