Terrified

Someone once said, ~The scariest thing about falling in love is getting hurt. The scariest thing about getting hurt is not being able to love again. The scariest thing about not loving again is being alone forever.~ As said before, the scariest thing about falling in love is getting hurt and in order to see if there is any possibility of mutual feelings is to put yourself out there. For it can most definitely be a frightening situation indeed to meet someone who only brings a genuine smile to your face, but gives those proverbial butterflies in your stomach to the point where you begin to question everything. It's those questions in which they set in motion a mental and emotional rollercoaster you hope to be able to hold on to for dear life inevitably making it to the other side in one piece.

Without a doubt, when you experience your heart skipping a beat for a potentially worthwhile relationship the words you want to convey have a tendency to be all jumbled up to where there is absolute difficulty in speaking. True, you may not have a problem formulating the words in your heart but when it comes to actually vocally articulating them out loud one suffers a brain fart of epic proportions. Thinking about it further, every word held within your heart truly has significance and not to mention special meaning so much so you're fearful you'll end up sharing too much. Hey, every person has been or is currently in a situation where they're mentally and emotionally at the edge having no idea what their next course of action should be concerning a guy/girl that scares him/her to no end.

If you think about it, when a person calls in love one tends to hold back what they want to say fearing the possibility of being rejected. It's a frustrating state of affairs for any individual to want to verbally convey from what's within their own heart that it can very well lead to the brink of insanity. Oftentimes, the aforementioned insanity causes one to overanalyze and overthink what may not even be reciprocated by the quintessential object of their affection. Of course, it's a tortuous existence for a number of people who endure a seemingly endless battle to either express how they feel and end up facing rejection or keep it to themselves, whereby forever living with the question of "what if" always having over their heart, which is a scary scenario to find yourself in.

Let me ask this question to those men/women who ultimately conquered the fear of taking the leap of faith regarding true happiness. Did you do it because you simply didn't want to be alone or the mere fact you felt your life began when he/she stepped into yours? I think its safe to say each one of us have dreamed of meeting someone who has that innate capacity of filling us with such immense joy and happiness that the thoughts/feelings of past loneliness, heartache, anger, disappointment, frustration, bitterness, etc. fade way into the shadowy darkness never to be experienced again. Essentially, what replaces it is a terrifying sense of new found unexplainable energy outwardly expressed by not only a bright shining smile in your heart, but on your face too.

In retrospect, it's totally normal to be scared of love because of how unpredictable it can be knowing full well how it changes people. Granted, it can turn a relatively level headed person into a complete nutcase who should be checked into a mental institution...but I digress. In any case, whether it be positive or negative, the thing about falling in love is you're willing to take the risk even if you are tremendously freaked out. What it primarily comes down to is using that fear to your advantage and despite all the unknown variables you can't control, at least you put forth a valiant effort. In the end, for those living the single life like myself we hope to one day be positively changed by our future best friend for life who from the moment we meet makes an impact so great it leaves us absolutely terrified, which is a song by current star of the CBS series Scorpion Katherine McPhee featuring Zachary Levi best known for the tv series Chuck.