The Other Side

Someone once said, ~The tough thing about following your heart is what people forget to mention is that sometimes your heart takes you to places you shouldn't be. Places that are scary as they are exciting and as dangerous as they are alluring. Sometimes your heart cannot take you to places that lead to happy endings. That's not even the difficult part, the difficult part is when you follow your heart, you leave normal, you go into the unknown and once you do you can never go back.~ If you think about it, it's tough to follow your heart because you can find yourself metaphorically entering into the oftentimes confusing maze of your thoughts, feelings, and emotions that lead you in so many different directions inevitably causing you to not only lose your mind, but also become so lost to the point where you're not able to find your way out.

As said before, the toughest thing about following your heart is getting lost within the maze of your own thoughts, feelings, and emotions as it takes you to places within yourself that once you go in you may not be able to ever come out. For you start out excited and see clear as day where you want to be, but when you venture further in it increasingly grows darker making it difficult to figure out your surroundings. It can be a scary situation indeed to be in as you metaphorically stand in darkness within yourself not knowing which direction to take leaving you absolutely vulnerable. It's within that vulnerability you begin to experience the one thing that each of us tend to never want to face and even though you can't see it or touch it, you know its there creeping up, over, under, beside, as well as, all around you...fear.

Without a doubt, fear is the one thing you never want to come face to face with, in a manner of speaking, as you try to maneuver around the seemingly complicated maze you've built up within yourself. Why? It tends to make you too afraid to move causing you to keep yourself positioned in one place within yourself that instinctively feels safe to be in and yet at the same time you want to move forward knowing full well at some point you're going to have to face the one wall you not only try to avoid, but also greatly fear as well...the wall of rejection. Let me tell you something, no matter how many times you turn a corner hoping to find a way past the wall of rejection you end up becoming trapped on all four sides to where the frustration you build up changes to anger and that anger eventually manifests itself into utter madness leaving you to hold on to the remaining pieces of your own sanity.

Let me ask you this question, whether you're following your heart or personally dealing with issues of a past relationship are you finding yourself going through your own maze filled with confusing twists and turns possibly encountering walls along the way? Thinking about it, its simply amazing how any person can look as if nothing is wrong on the outside only to find that on the inside he or she is scrambling back and forth trying to find their way out. Out, in the sense of, trying to get back to being normal or close to normal as one can be whereby freeing them from not only the emotional pain of having what their feeling be pulled in all directions, but also from the mental pain of trying to figure out what to do next, which would push anyone to the brink of insanity. Ultimately, you just have to pray to God for help and let Him guide you through it because if you don't you'll become forever lost within yourself.

Someone said, ~Love is a never-ending maze: make sure you don't go in the wrong direction.~ Personally speaking, in the past 2 years I've been in a funk as I became lost within the dark maze of my own thoughts, feelings and emotions that I've been holding on to as I was following my heart. You see, it was a woman that had me facing a wall that I was truly afraid of, especially coming from her and I ended up trapping myself within 4 walls that I wasn't able to get out of, essentially causing the loss of my sanity. This past month, I finally let it all go and by doing it I experienced a bright light of calming peace that helped guide me in the right direction to regain my sanity. In the end, it wasn't easy by any means to find my way out, but I did by praying to God for guidance and in the immortal words of The Door's late frontman Jim Morrison I was able to break on through to the other side.