Saturday, September 30, 2006

Show Me The Meaning of Being Lonely

Keith Haynie once said, ~ Loneliness, the clearest of crystal insight into your own soul , it's the fear of one's own self that haunts the lonely.~ If you think about it, every person is feeling or has felt that cold, empty, powerful force from within one's heart known as loneliness. For its within loneliness you find your sense of self, which tends to be lost as times of want or heartbreak leaves you searching for that essence of being fully whole. Its an essence that certain people are lucky to have with someone who gives your life meaning, but for some people they're missing that meaning to the point where one has time to think about, as well as, best explain/describe what loneliness means to them.

Without a doubt, loneliness can be at times simply indescribable and yet at the same time there can be so many words to describe how one feels. In a sense, its like a silence in your heart that you just can't stand and all you hear is a constant echo bouncing off within that empty space. A seemingly haunting silence you absolutely want to stop hearing, in a manner of speaking, as you truly want to replace the empty space within your heart and fill it with something you haven't felt in a while with someone such as joy and laughter. For some, most, or all people it's been a terrible, heavy, and painful burden to carry around, so to speak, to where a person experiences a sort of crazy frustration that leaves at a loss for words.

In some aspect, loneliness can be considered like an unwanted friend who follows you around and no matter how hard you try to avoid it, it's always there at every turn just nagging you to no end. Nagging in a way that reminds you of how lonely you are by hearing news of someone you were once interested in is getting engaged/married or showing you that you're the last one of your circle of friends who has not gotten married, which can be a very depressing situation indeed. However, you live it the best you possibly can even though it hurts to see those around, who are in relationships, doing the little things that can most definitely mean so much such as holding hands or being given a smile that brightens your day.

Oftentimes, waking each day can be a tough situation as it adds on more feelings and emotions that can be completely different from the days before. We've all breathed out a familiar sigh of not so much relief but rather a sigh of utter frustration not only within your heart but within your soul. Essentially, you wish to be anywhere but where you are at mentally, personally, as well as, emotionally and just be at the side of that special someone who can break one's long, steady gaze into the seemingly long desolate road within one's heart. However, you just have to keep distracting yourself and not let the loneliness control you to the point it completely runs your ever waking life, which is something you don't want to have ever happen.

David Foster Wallace said, ~We're all lonely for something we don't know we're lonely for. How else to explain the curious feeling that goes around feeling like missing somebody we've never even met?~ In retrospect, loneliness is a dark and dreary place that you can easily get lost in as you try to find that something missing within your heart. The funny thing though is that something/someone will find you and shed a warm light into the empty space within your heart to where you will be able to finally see the person who you will be able to give your whole heart to. In the end, that is what loneliness means to me, but if you have a better interpretation then please by all means show me the meaning of being lonely, which is a song by the group known as BSB.

7 comments:

Anonymous said...

I AM RIDER

Anonymous said...

YOUR EQUAL

Anonymous said...

LEADER OF THE PACK

Anonymous said...

I HAVE OUTLIVED THEM ALL

Anonymous said...

IF ONLY YOU KNEW THE TRUTH, OLD FRIEND. AMBITION IS THE ONE THING I NEVER HAD. WHY DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU OFFERED ME THE POSSE, I DECLINED AND LEFT IT FOR OTHERS. AND YET YOU BLAME ME. TELL ME THEIR ACTIONS DOESN'T QUANTIFY THE DEFINITION OF INSANITY... DANTE

Coco said...

Hello Yoda,
I'm a friend of Bond's and I have been reading your blog for some time now. Don't remember if I've ever posted a comment before, but wanted you to know I enjoy your writing very much. We met a few times on the Taylor AI boards, but I wasn't very active there when you were, so our paths didn't cross too often. This post really struck a chord with me. Thanks for your thoughts, they have given me something to consider ...

Anonymous said...

It has that whole MC Usher perspective.