I'm Not Worthy

Someone once said, ~ It is rewarding to find someone you like, but it is essential to like yourself. It is quickening to recognize that someone is a good and decent human being, but it is indispensable to view yourself as worthy of respect and admiration and love, but it is vital to believe yourself deserving of these things.~ Let me ask you this question, when it comes to that special someone you will meet someday or already have met do you sometimes think you will be even worthy or are even worthy enough to be loved by him or her? For it's a seemingly reasonable question that you can not only worry about, but it can also affect your self-esteem, which can get chopped down to size, in a manner of speaking.

Without a doubt, every person has experienced the highs, as well as, the lows of love or something like it. When things are going in the right direction you feel in control and somewhat invincible like nothing can hurt you, but when things are going in the wrong direction you're not in control as you feel that vulnerability overtake you. For one's worry, which starts off small, can turn into doubt to where it becomes an overwhelming sense of fear that can also affect your ego and pride. Other than your ego and pride, one's self-esteem can most definitely be affected to where it makes you wonder/worry as to whether or not you're truly deserving of someone who loves/will love you for the person you really are instead of the person you think you are.

In any case, it would probably be safe to say that there are those who experienced having your self esteem chopped down to size by someone you thought truly loved you with all his or her heart. It's a sad situation indeed when a relationship is broken because that guy/girl no longer is in love with him or her and no matter how hard one wants to try to fix whatever problem caused the breakup that person doesn't want it to be fixed as that person just wants to move on. As selfish and cold as that sounds, it's a reality that some, most, or all people have faced to the point it left them in denial, as well as, feeling small, stunned, shocked, and humiliated as that person turned his or her back on not only you but your heart as well.

Oftentimes, a person can go through self-esteem issues when in a potential and/or significant relationship caused by either being turned down so many times or being hurt physically, emotionally, and/or personally by bad past relationships. For the most part, you can feel as if you're broken inside after suffering heartache that initially leaves you missing a part of yourself that was metaphorically taken by a supposed past love such as one's smile. Essentially, when someone steps into your life who is truly a good, genuine, decent, nice, as well as, kind person the compliments he or she gives you like you're beautiful/handsome aren't readily accepted and is refutable in your own eyes even though it's true in his or her own eyes.

In retrospect, every person deserves to be loved, admired, and respected by that special someone who not only doesn't have any ulterior motives to be with you, but is able to bring back up your self-esteem. It's when you look into his or her eyes you somehow feel comfortable, as well as safe and when you need cheering up he or she is always there for you to put a smile on your face which has been missing for quite some time. In the end, it's when you're with this person who you think should be with someone else far more deserving than you, you find yourself saying to yourself or out loud those immortal words made famous by both Wayne Campbell and Garth Algar from Wayne's World which are I'm not worthy.