Collide

Someone once said, ~Two hearts, two minds, in time, did find, one love, one aim, two paths, the same. Rejoice! Hold fast! And love with last.~ If you think about it, each of us have spent or are spending time exploring the one place that nobody else can physically go but yourself and that is within your own heart. Its a journey that we all seem to go on as we metaphorically wander from within figuring out what our heart is telling us, as well as, who its pointing/directing you to someone else's heart. For its in that time of soul searching, you will find yourself going over who you are as a person. Let me ask you this question, when was the last time you did some quality soul searching?

The human heart is a small organ that can fit in the palm of your hand but has an absolute vastness to it as it stores feelings and emotions that are oftentimes overwhelming. For some, most or all people, it can truly be emotionally exhausting to keep hidden what's in your heart for a particular someone to where they eventually go away. Yet, they never really do go away as you still have small pieces of those feelings left that stick with you for either a short or long period of time. Each one of us have someone, either from our past or present, who we keep in a very special place in our heart and when you think about him or her it brings not a smile to your face but also tears as well.

In some aspect, a person's heart is like a time capsule as it holds certain feelings and emotions for a particular someone that you deem/deemed special in your life now or in the past. Its within that time capsule you tend to hold close the connection you had or still have with that person even though he or she may not be in your life. Whether it be a first love, an ex, a past or current crush, the feelings and the emotions that go with him or her will inevitably be brought to the surface no matter how deep you try to bury them. Essentially, it takes something such as looking at a yearbook, reading a letter, listening to a song, etc. that brings those feelings and emotions right back.

Thinking about it, love is basically a four letter word that is seemingly harmless, but when its attatched to someone special its considered dangerous. Why? Its due to the fact you're potentially letting go of all your feelings and emotions, as you let someone get so close to you that you are comfortable sharing everything such as your hopes, dreams, fears, goals for the future, etc. To perfectly honest, love is scary to me and its not the committment aspect of it because I'm willing to committ. Is the falling in love part tha does because I have never been in love and its that unknown which scares me. Yet it gives me assures me that I will one day experience it to the fullest with some that will love me back.

In the past few months, I did some serious soul searching as to who I am as a person. What I came up with was that I'm laid back, funny, non-judgemental, hard working, sarcastic, goofy, a loyal friend, and have a corny sense of humor. Yet, I'm shy, cautious, serious, quiet at times, and reserved to where I hold back certain thoughts, emotions and feelings that I have. Its within those thoughts, emotions and feelings that I use writing as an outlet to express myself. In the end, when it comes to being the person I am and the love I have within my heart, I will one day collide or already did collide with special someone, which is a song by Howie Day that somewhat reflects this thought.