Every Little Thing

Anatole France once said,~All changes even the most longed for have their melancholy, for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves; we must die to one life before we can enter another.~ If you think about it, when it comes to matters of the heart you want to be the guy or girl who changes the course of a relationship in which you deal with certain barriers prohibiting you from in all intents and purposes being let into someone's heart. For it’s that someone who even though on the outside shows signs one may want to establish the relationship you get the strangest feeling on the inside he or she is going through an inner struggle within one's heart leading you to be kept at a distance. Essentially, it's a big change he or she yearns for and it can come to fruition by the little ways you do things that inevitably penetrate the heart causing the metaphorical door to gradually open.

Let me ask you this question, how many of you believe in love or true love for that matter? Its a type of love that brings you to a point in your life where you rethink your current situation you're in because of experiencing a little glimpse of contentment that has you wanting to leave all or at least part of yourself behind that isn't scared to express what's in your heart, but maybe for that particular person of interest its difficult. However, for some people they put little belief in love/true love truly bringing contentment and yet at the same time don't completely rule it out. Why? What it comes down to is the issue of trust as he/she has in the past unfortunately put their trust in someone who told lies, broke promises, or whatever the case may be creating a mindset in which he/she will always be involved in a neverending cycle of heartache that will never change.

Without a doubt, it's hard for someone who has been hurt time and time again in the past to change their views on love/relationships making it difficult to be metaphorically let into his or her heart. You see, we all want to have that so-called perfect moment in which it cements the permanence of a long lasting happiness hopefully without any overwhelming doubts. Unfortunately, experience has taught each of us that a seemingly little dream as attaining the perfect moment is oftentimes temporary because of the lack of protection being given to one's feelings/emotions. Oftentimes you're left to, in a manner of speaking, wake up to the harsh, bittersweet reality of experiencing the same feelings of sadness, anger, disappointment, heartache, etc., which is considered a living nightmare within not only your heart, but soul as well to where tears are possibly shed.

For the question can be asked, is it ever too late to change the course of a relationship when the person eventually figures out their own identity? An identity that up to a point felt incomplete within his/her heart, as well as, sick and tired of living in a world of lies, but the times spent with a particular person who makes you rethink the unattainable life is in fact attainable causes a gradual shift in the direction of where one's heart wants to be. Thinking about it, it's doing something as small as not giving up /turning your back on a person you care about even though the love aspect of the relationship is at times a frustrating unknown all-the-while dealing with so many variables shows there is a willingness to be there whenever needed, whereby establishing a comfortable basis to give enough space to sort through whatever mutual feelings is/are being shared between each other to have.

In retrospect, when you meet someone who is not the same guy/girl you usually meet/date it's like going through an awakening of sorts as you find yourself in a situation where instead of believing in nothing, you have a chance to believe in something. Instead of always hearing lies, you actually trust in that fact that you're actually being told the truth for a change. Instead of focusing on the broken dreams/moments given in the past, focus on rebuilding new dreams/moments you're being given in the present and maybe into the future. In the end, it's tough indeed to be the person who wants those little things that make love/relationships special knowing their past history of heartbreak and yet it's tougher to be that guy/girl who wishes one could be every little thing that person has always wanted, which is a song by Dishwalla that reflects this thought.

So Close

Someone once said, ~We are the one's who know best the meaning of 'goodbye'; who cling fast to the trinkets and pillows, when our arms cannot reach; whose bodies live in one place, our hearts and minds in another. To whom their scent is precious...a touch priceless. We wait months for what many experience each day, and want nothing more. We know what it is to reach out blindly in the night, to be torn apart, to dream of a beautiful closeness.~ Without a doubt, its hard to say goodbye to a dream that you so want to comes true, especially when it comes to matters of the heart. You see, there are moments in life where you meet someone that leads you to believe fairy tail dreams do come true while at the same time you're afraid to reach for it in order to make it a reality.

Let me ask you this question, have you ever been in a situation where you had to say goodbye to someone who you've not only gotten to know, but also fallen for? For it's that guy or girl who is considered to be the proverbial dream come true you so wanted to reach for and yet were too afraid to share how you truly felt. It would be safe to say each one of us have been or currently in that type of particular situation and even though it makes you feel sad to think about it you smile. Why? You smile for the simple reason that he or she has left a song within your heart that you'll always associate with that person, inevitably keep the memory of him/her alive and whether or not you actually sing it out loud for others to hear is primarily left up to you to do.

If you think about it, our lives are chaotic enough trying to live day by day in order to in all intents and purposes survive life all-the-while seeking a peaceful calmness within. However, when someone steps into your life that seemingly calms the chaotic world around you with just simple words, a touch, an embrace you feel as if the happiness you thought was a mere fantasy is within arms reach. However, it's the same happiness that essentially has calmed your outward surroundings and has most definitely brought chaos inwardly as it turns the world within your heart/soul upside down each time you spend with this person. Let me tell you something, you can pretend all you want that the feelings you have are going to eventually go away, but the truth of the matter is they'll always be there.

For the question can be asked, how many of you have looked in the mirror ad seen the face of someone who didn't take the opportunity tell someone how you truly felt about him or her knowing that you've had plenty of chances in the past. So what stopped you from doing it? I can't speak for others, but when it came to my own situation it came to down feelings I haven't felt for a female in a long time as past situations have had me just dealing with and then moving on quickly from the disappointment, but with her I basically said nothing so that I wouldn't face that harsh disappointment. Trust me when I say, you can kick yourself for not telling that certain someone face to face how being with/around/near you even if it was for a brief period of time was an experience that will be absolutely treasured.

In retrospect, it makes you feel good inside to get to know someone you have grown to appreciate/like/care about to a point where a smile never leaves your face leaving with this urge to run after this person to be with him/her. Thinking about it, wanting someone and wanting to be with someone are two different things as one deals with the physical as the other deals with the heart. Personally speaking, I wanted to be with her and to be perfectly honest it wasn't about the physical aspect of it at all as it was more about just being able to see her smile, hear her laugh, and other little things that made me smile from ear to ear. In the end, when it came to the feelings/emotions I was feeling for her I came so close to telling her, but it was those same feelings/emotions that scared me causing me to metaphorically keep myself far away and it's a song that best reflects this thought is by John McLaughlin from the Disney movie Enchanted.

Hit The Sack(1st Yodaism of 2008)

Jason Alexander's Seinfeld character George Costanza once said, ~I love a good nap. Sometimes its the only thing getting me out of bed in the morning.~ A study done by the Harvard School of Public Health found that napping is beneficial when they do not last longer than 30 minutes. The study showed that nearly 24,000 people found that those who regularly took afternoon naps were nearly 40 percent less likely to die from heart disease than non-nappers. Let me ask you this question, how many of you take time out the day whether it's on your lunch break at work or wherever the case may be for you to have a nice nap? I think each and every one of you can agree with me when I say taking a nap is just one of those little things in life you look forward to, especially when you get older.

As said before, a nap is something we all look forward to taking during any given day, especially when we get older. Why? Essentially, it's a great stress reliever as certain things in life either at home, work, in a relationship, or simply out and about get to you to a point where it drains you physically, emotionally, mentally, as well as, spiritually causing you not to be able to function clearly leaving you absolutely cranky. It would be safe to say that there are some of you right now who are thinking about taking a nap, getting into bed, resting your head on the cool side of the pillow, pulling the covers over you, and I would also guess you're yawning at the moment aren't you? STOP! Sorry about that...if you could wait for a few minutes to read this then you can drift off into la la land.

Without a doubt, one of the greatest things to do after eating a big meal is taking a nap because you're so full, which is witnessed by one's drooping eyelids. For it's always a good day or night when you eat out and depending on whether or not you have anything planned/important to do afterwards you take a nap. However, never plan on eating a big meal when you know you're either going to class or work afterwards because you'll not only pay for it later by fighting with yourself to stay awake, but you may possibly get chewed out for nodding off to where you're heard snoring. Let me tell you something, it's an embarrassing situation indeed when you find yourself in the spotlight, so to speak, when you're woken up by a teacher/professor/boss, but for the most part it was well worth it.

If you think about it, taking a nap is something that can be considered a mistake to do particularly if you're someone of seemingly great importance. What do I mean? Well, think back to circa 1992. The Vice Presidential Debate between Al Gore, Dan Quayle, and the late Admiral James Stockdale. It was during this debate that an unprepared James Stockdale not only made a fool of himself by asking who he was but during the debate he decided to take a nap while standing at the podium. Now, the ramifications of this embarrassing faux pas didn't help Ross Perot's candidacy for the White House. Of course, comedians and comedy sketch shows like Saturday Night Live made light of the situation making it an absolutely worthwhile period in political satire to watch in the 90's.

In retrospect, as adults our perspective tends to change about naps from our days as little kids who simply dreaded going to bed in the middle of the day. In some aspect, it seemed like a punishment handed down to us by our mean parent(s) and now it is something we want to have in order to recharge the batteries possibly after working an early morning shift at work. Thinking about it, it's funny how kids cry when they don't want to take a nap because they still want to play and yet when it comes to us as adults we cry when we want to take a nap because we in all intents and purposes 'played' practically the whole day. In the end, the nap is a very underrated thing that should be cherished and with that said I'm going to hit the sack before I have to go to work again in a couple of hours.