Friday, June 30, 2006

Eye Of The Tiger

Michael Jordan once said, ~I just feel that my competitive drive is far greater than anyone else that I've met and I think that I thrive on that I think that is my biggest motivation in life...to completely find different competitions in certain things in life and try to overcome that, be it positive or negative.~ We all have, whether you want to admit it or not, have that competitive spirit/drive inside to where you don't like to lose at certain things. Depending on the level of one's competitiveness, experiencing loss or defeat can sting to the point where it can stay with you for a short or long period of time. For it can not only affect adults, but it can also affect kids as well.

Without a doubt kids have that competitive drive especially when its against each other. Younger kids, more so than older kids, tend to have that competitive drive which can be switched on and off like a light switch. We've all witnessed kids play/create fun and/or interesting games at the spur of the moment to where the rules, that oftentimes are made up, can be changed at any moment. For it when they are losing at that particular game the rules either change to suit their advantage or quit and play a completely different game. Hey, its what each and every one of us did back in the day and even though it was what your friends made, they still were your friends at the end of the day...most of the time.

When it comes to competition between kids and adults the results can be taken personally not by the kids but by the adults. As an adult, our ego and pride can take a big hit when one goes head to knee with someone who can't stay up past 8.p.m. As I said, nobody likes to lose and when you lose to a kid it can be a humbling experience as you not only have to endure the gloating from him or her, but also endure biting your tongue so that you do not say something you may regret or get fired. Of course, if the situation were reversed the gloating would be reciprocated back, which I have done plenty of times to kids at the asylum and I don't apologize for doing it.

Essentially, the will to win is something that all adults want to achieve as it is a competitive out in the real world. Whether it's business, academics, sports, etc. a person will be in competition in some kind of way, shape, or form with someone or something. For it truly is a dog eat dog world as you want to be the best at what you do despite all the obstacles one may face. One such name that comes to mind that personifies competitive drive while faced with obstacles is Lance Armstrong. Facing cancer and critics, he beat both to not win 7 Tour De Frances but he also beat the critics who accused him of using performance enhancing drugs to win, which he did not.

As we all know July 4th is just a few days away and there will be competitions galore in celebration of it. One of those competitions is the annual 4th of July Hot Dog eating contest, which has been won by, in the past 5 years mind you, by Takeru "Tsunami" Kobayashi. For he owns the world record in 2004 for scarfing down 53 1/2 hot dogs and let me tell you something I get full after eating only 3 of them. For the question has to be asked, will Takeru "Tsunami" Kobayashi continue his win streak this 4th of July? In the end, it's just a matter of having that one thing which when you see it you know that the competition is on and that is the eye of the tiger.

Monday, June 26, 2006

Fearless

Aminda M. Phillippe once said, ~I can jump off a cliff and be scared for thirty seconds. But I can look love straight in the face and be scared for the rest of my life.~ One of the scariest experiences a person will face is that moment where one takes that leap of faith in the name of love. It can truly be a scary situation indeed as you risk the mortality of your own heart for that special someone. For those that jumped before you have either found themselves continually falling happily or unfortunately felt the sudden impact that they didn't want to see coming. Love, it's considered an exciting adrenaline rush that lasts a lifetime and yet the question remains why be so afraid of it?

When it comes to love you totally commit yourself wholeheartedly to jump without ever really thinking about the consequences you may suffer. At first, you feel that initial rush of excitement running over your entire body to where you have that feeling of flying like Superman. It's a feeling of strong confidence as you feel absolute invulnerability and yet that same strong confidence can be gone in an instant leaving you vulnerable within your heart. For the control you thought you had is slowly lost and is replaced with extreme doubt as you find yourself thinking, saying, or screaming out loud have I completely lost my mind?

Essentially, every possible thought concerning that certain someone can/will go through your mind to where you're rationalizing reasons why jumping was clearly a big mistake. Such reasons that come to mind are: Am I even ready for love? Am I going to be able to give this person all that he/she wants and/or needs? Am I truly worthy enough to be part of this person's heart? Am I strong enough to be there for this person both physically, spiritually, and emotionally? Did I actually make the right choice in jumping? It's these questions and more that can scare you senseless to a point where you start to grab on to anything to either slow down or stop. For the question can be asked, are you now or have you been in this particular situation?

Without a doubt, there is nothing safe about love and no matter how hard you try to protect yourself from being hurt you can't. In a sense, love is like kryptonite and it inevitably saps your strength both physically and emotionally each time you get hurt or when getting closer to someone. If you think about it, saying I love you to that certain someone opens you up to reveal your true self that holds emotion and feelings you don't want to show. Why? By admitting to yourself that you love someone the pain and heartache will become much greater to the point the freefall grows increasingly faster.

Someone said, ~I'm scared to fall in love, scared to fall fast, because every time I fall in love...it never seems to last.~ In retrospect, when you fall in love there will always be risk involved as you jump in hopes that you don't become another so called victim of love and yet the biggest risk is holding back the love you have for that certain someone. Ultimately, you just have to keep jumping and risk all that you are, as well as, all that you have in your heart to conquer your fear. In the end, when you do find that special someone who you would risk falling forever for even though you're scared out of your mind then my friend you truly are fearless.

Wednesday, June 21, 2006

I'm Still Standing

Someone once said, ~There is within each and every one of us the ability to love somebody with all of our heart. And although our hearts may get broken, it is only through heartache and pain that we learn how much love we really can give.~ Think about this, the most resilient part of the human body is a person's heart because of how much punishment it can endure. In some aspect, love is the ultimate test to see how strong and/or tough one's heart can become when you deal with feelings, as well as emotions that can physically and metaphorically break you. Let me ask you this question, when it comes to love, how strong do you think your heart is?

Within every person's heart there holds a love that is mysterious, gentle, funny, tender, nurturing, soulful, and most certainly passionate. For it truly takes a special person to awaken those certain attributes that are hidden away/left dormant to not ever see the light of day, so to speak. It's when you meet that special someone those particular attributes shine through bringing out the best in you, which can be seen by those around you. That love within your heart by no means makes you weaker but rather it makes you stronger as you find yourself showing other attributes you didn't know you had in you, which can surprise not only yourself but also the one you love.

In any case, it would be safe to say that many of you have felt heartache whether by being lied to, cheated on, or whatever the case may be. In a sense, it's like being stabbed in the heart and whether or not it has repeatedly happened to you it's an experience one doesn't want to live through again. Those betrayals of supposed love can twist the knife in one's heart to where the pain can linger on for months, years, or even decades. Nobody ever wants to be reminded of a painful past love, which can open back up those particular wounds and yet they are, in a way, a driving force to grow stronger not just in the physical sense but also in the emotional sense within your heart.

When it comes to love there are many lessons to be learned and one of those lessons is that loving someone with all your heart is difficult. What it comes down to is having respect for that person and showing that he or she is truly important to you not just as bf/gf/husband/wife but as a friend. However, if respect is not reciprocated back the time and effort put into that relationship falls apart. In my opinion, in order to earn respect from the one you love you have to give respect by appreciating and acknowledging all that he or she does with kindness, love, and compassion. For the question can be asked, do you have this person in your life right now who is considered the source of your strength in your heart.

In retrospect, pain and heartache will always be synonymous with love because without it life wouldn't be that interesting. Each time you experience it, you essentially learn from it and hopefully grow into a better person. For the metaphorical scars and bruises you suffer from being hurt can be considered badges of honor that have inevitably led you to meet the one who you're going to spend the rest of your life with. In the end, when you look back at past hurts that have knocked you down you not only see how far you've come but also you see the strength and resiliency you have within your heart to keep getting back up to where you say to yourself or outloud to those who wronged you I'm still standing.

Friday, June 16, 2006

The Way It Is

What is a hottie? It's a question that essentially has many different answers when it concerns either a guy or girl who supposedly has the total package going on. An athlete, actor, actress, musician, comedian, soldier, etc. are just a plethora of people who tend to be given the prestigious title. A title that can be given to someone solely on the basis of superficiality or given to someone that has something more than what's beyond the surface. Now it would be safe to say that for those who are reading this you may already have someone in mind. Let me ask you this question, who do you consider to be, whether you know this person or not, a hottie?

As a guy, several names stand out as the term hottie refers to someone of the female persuasion. Such names that come to my mind are Angelina Jolie, Jessica Alba, Heidi Klum, Halle Barry, Maria Sharapova, the lead singer of the Pussycat Dolls, Rachel Hunter, Heidi Klum, etc. the list goes on and on. Yet, it doesn't stop at celebrities as guys very well know certain females who one sees on a regular or semi-daily basis who are considered smokin'. Personally speaking, I know and/or am friends with certain females who I work with, have worked with, classmates with, chatted online with, and hung out with who I considered to be hotties; BUT unfortunately I will not divulge who those particular females are...sorry.

When it comes to the male side of the spectrum, guys don't necessarily sit around and talk about who's considered a hottie. However, women do to the point they talk all day about it to the point polls, fan clubs, as well as, websites are created in honor of the gentlemen they've picked to be the hottie of the minute, hour, day, week, month, and/or year. Such names that I have overheard who are deemed hotties are Johnny Depp, Brad Pitt, Paul walker, Orlando Bloom, Usher, Justin Timberlake, Taylor Hicks, etc. and the list goes on and on. More often than not its their appearance that tends to get their heads a turnin', their eyes a poppin', and hearts a poppin' to the point that a cold shower is needed to cool them down.

For the question can be asked though to the ladies, can someone who is in his golden ages still be considered a hottie? Is the hottie status reserved just for those of the younger generation? For there are plenty of distinguished gentlemen who still got their mojo going and are considered hotties in their own right according to a certain number of women across the world. Such names who still have the capacity to make women's hearts go pitter patter are Sir Sean Connery, Clint Eastwood, Paul Newman, and Robert Redford. Whether it's 007, Dirty Harry, or two guys who will be forever known as Butch Cassidy and the Sundance kid its these guys who still have that certain something to which I tip my hat to them out of respect.

About 2 weeks ago a female friend of mine said that I am a hottie and though I was flattered I responded with a resounding no I am not. Why? I don't see myself as a hottie because I've experienced that ever so popular 5 word statement that I tend to hear which is you're a nice guy but. That "but" has been the proverbial bullet with my name on it and I've unfortunately hit many times with it. Being the so-called cute guy with dimples who is considered to be "just friends" material is who I feel that I am and if it seems that I sound a bit angry\/frustrated...well I am. In the end, that's the way it is and no amount of convincing me otherwise to prove me wrong will help.

Tuesday, June 13, 2006

My Time

A woman said, ~He is the person I go to when I need to laugh, and he is always ready for me with something hilarious to say. He is the one I go to when I want to share my good day, and he asks all the right questions, knowing all the answers anyway. He is the one I can cry to and not scare away. He's by my side; he's in my mind, and he's here to stay.~ Without a doubt, any woman is truly lucky to meet a guy who is everything she ever wanted and more, which in all intents and purposes is the man of her dreams. For is this so-called dream guy that exhibits three main qualities which are a sense of humor, intelligence, and caring sensitivity.

It has been said laughter is the best medicine when it comes to one of the many qualities that a woman looks for in a guy. Being able to tickle her proverbial funny bone is a characteristic that is considered attractive, but the type of humor presented determines either a look of loving happiness or a look of utter disgust. It's merely a matter of questionable taste as to what is just plain funny or just plain crude, which a woman truly takes note of with her eyes and ears. Like that first initial kiss, women know that if a guy genuinely makes her laugh then he's the one and if he is able to make you laugh to the point of changing your undergarments then he's most definitely a keeper.

For some, most, or all women they want a guy with intelligence and when I mean intelligence I mean is he able to put the toilet seat down every time after only being told once, but that's a whole other subject saved for a later yodaism. Anyways, when it comes to intelligence a woman wants a guy who's not dumb as a doornail and yet doesn't want a guy who is a pompous intellectual that supposedly knows everything. In other words, a guy who's intellect is somewhere in the middle and to a woman being able to have a meaningful stimulating conversation means so much because it gives her a chance to find out if he will be able to give her the answers that she has been searching for when it comes to love.

Caring sensitivity is a character trait that is rare indeed these days for a woman to find in a guy, especially when life isn't going as planned to where tears are being shed. I'll be honest with you, guys don't necessarily know what to do when there is a woman crying in their presence because we have no idea the nature of the problem that caused the waterworks to start a flowin'. Yet, as a guy it's our gentlemanly duty to give the proverbial shoulder to cry on, let her vent, and not say a single solitary word to where she feels better. In a sense, it just doesn't take an open ear to show that a guy cares, it also takes an open heart to metaphorically catch those tears to show her that he's going to stay by your side and not run away.

This past Saturday, a woman who I have only known for 4 days got married to a friend of mine for several years. It's this same friend that I got to experience traveling to and from Ohio near death experiences..twice, as well as, characteristics that really got under my skin, which I tended to look past being that I'm never around him on a daily basis. Yet, as I stood only a few feet back I could see she absolutely loved him no matter what with all her heart and soul. In the end, my time will someday come to be the guy who the woman in the beginning quote described plus a whole lot more and a song that tends to reflect this thought is Someday by Vince Gill.

Thursday, June 01, 2006

Go Rest High

Ecclesiastes 3:1-2 says, ~To every thing there is a reason and time to every purpose under the heaven; A time to be born, and a time to die; a time to plant and a time to pluck that which is planted.~ Without a doubt, there are two things we know for certain and that we live and die. Most certainly, we all have the living part down pat, but when it comes to death nobody can ever really be prepared to hear or witness someone who you know, care about, and/or love pass away. For the things that go in between birth and death is what each of us make of it as the decisions/choices one makes will inevitably have you be remembered either in a good or bad way.

For some, most, or all people the good times rather than the bad times are essentially remembered for someone who was part of your life either on a personal or professional level. Depending on the particular person's situation, one should always reflect on the positives, which keeps not only you smiling but also everybody around you smiling as well. Although it's a time of sadness, it's a time of celebration as well for that person who enjoyed life with a passion with the people he or she cared about and loved. We've all been in this particular situation and it unfortunately doesn't get any easier as time goes on, but as the saying goes you keep on keepin' on the best you can.

If you think about it, the one question that tends to get asked over and over again is why? Why him/her? It truly is hard to rationalize why good people are taken away too soon and in the prime of his or her life no less. When it pertains to that person, it is oftentimes a difficult situation to try to change a certain routine that involves him or her such as saying high to each other in passing or whatever the case may be for you. Yet, one eventually accepts the fact that the person who you either woke up next to, see everyday at work, were classmates with, were best friends with, etc. is no longer there in the physical sense, but is absolutely with you in the spiritual sense.

As I've said before in the past, you form attachments to the kids in the asylum who you spend almost every day around. Over the past 10 years, I've been privileged enough to see many kids grow up before my eyes and it’s within those 10 years several kids have passed away. For me personally, even though they aren't your kids you feel like you are and hearing that type of news can affect you in some way, shape or form. For it's tough to handle and yet it's doubly tough when you have to tell his or her friends that their friend is gone. Let me tell you something, after 10 years whether its a child or even the parent of the child, it increasingly becomes harder rather than easier to handle because of the bond that has been established.

About 2 weeks ago, one of "my kid's" parents, who I've known for several years passed away due to breast cancer, which she successfully beat. What made it so tough to hear that news, which shocked not only me but also my best friends, was that we both saw her the previous week at a local popular eating establishment and she was happy as can be. In any case, we learned that she didn't suffer as she passed on in her sleep and as I stood a couple of feet away to pay my respects, I said to her you can now go rest high on that mountain where the Lord Jesus Christ has already welcomed you with open arms. A song that best reflects this thought is Go Rest High by Vince Gill.