Wednesday, November 30, 2005

An Old Saying

Jainism Acaranga Sutra said, ~A man is averse from having even the wind knows the sorrow of all things living...He who knows what is bad for himself knows what is bad for others, and he who knows what is bad for others knows what is bad for himsel. This reciprocity should always be borne in the mind. Those whose mind are at piece and who are free from passions do not desire to live [at the expense of others]...He who understands the nature of sin against wind is called a true sage who understands karma.~ What is karma? In its most simplest of terms, karma is the idea that every action you take causes a reaction in the future. Let me ask you this simple question, do you believe in karma?

Essentially, this Hindu belief govers around the law of cause and effect as our actions, whether bad or good, determines a positive and/or negative outcome. To put it in more simpler terms, if you are a bad person you're eventually going to have bad things happen to you and the same goes for being a good person only the exact opposite. If compared to, it would be like the hit NBC tv show My Name Is Earl starring Jason Lee. The premise of the show is that the main Character (Jason Lee) turns his life around by dong good deed for the people he primarily hurt, messed with, and/or stole from in his past. Every episode, so far, ended with him crossing someone's name off his list that he successfully helped.

If you think about it, the simplist deeds we do on a semi-daily basis can oftentimes case a ripple effect to where it snowballs into something bigger. In some aspect, karma and a person leading someone to the Lord somewhat parallel each other as a very significant/special moment which can lead to another such as one person getting saved then that person tell another and so on and so forth. In Acts 61:1 says, ~The Spirit of God is upon me, because the Lord hath annointed me to preach good tidings unto the meek; he hath sent me to bind up the broken-hearted, to proclaim liberty to the captives, and the opening of the prison to them that are bound.~

For the question can be asked, do these Yodaisms that I send out on a semi-daily basis considered karma or karma related? In a sense, it goes back to cause and effect as a certain topic causes me to think, write, and send out these Yodaisms to you guys and in effect they have some kind of emotional impact, if any, on you. For the most part, writing these Yodaisms has been an outlet for me to help make sense of certain things such as love, relationships, life, friendship, work, and everything in between. Primarily, it has helped give me peace of mind and a better night sleep when certain topics, whether serious or funny, cross my mind or fall into my lap so to speak. So if I have helped anybody out there though what I right, I tip my hat to you.

When I started working at the insane asylum in 1997, I was considered just a complete stranger to "my kids". Fast foward 9 years later, I've seen most of them grow up from little ankle biters to teenagers and they now consider me a big brother or a second dad. Personally speaking, I'm somewhat of a believer in karma as I do deeds for "my kids" who at times don't deserve it at times. Early this morning while getting ready for school one of my 6 & 7 girls called me over, gave me a hug, and then said these three words...I love you. That made my whole day as all the heachaches/frustrations over the past 9 years were all worthwhile because of what she said. In the end, there is an old saying that best sums up this Yodaism on karma and that is what goes around, comes around.

Monday, November 28, 2005

Its About Time

Dorothy Canfield Fisher once said, ~if we would only give, just once, the same amount of reflection to what we want to get out of life that we give to the question of what to do with a two weeks vacation, we would be startled at our false standards and the aimless procession of our busy days.~ Let me ask you this question, how long have you worked at your particular place of employment? Let me ask another question, when was the last time you took a well deserved vacation from the 9 to 5 daily grind, which can most definitely raise your stress level, as well as, probably make you go completely off the deep end or come close to it?

If you think about it every person has a job that is considered stressful and depending on what type of job you have it merits a much needed vacation. Whether its a police officer/fire fighter where they risk their lives to serve as well as protect people like us. Solders in the military who swore an aoth to protect our country from foreign invaders. Air traffic controllers who are consistantly responsible for the safety/well being of said number of passengers that are flying several thousand in the air. One could also say that waste management/disposal can be a stressful jon and you have to respect those workers who basically have to catch crap all day long which is funny because it has a double meaning.....or not.

Without a doubt, the job of President of the United States is tough because the whole world is has their eyes on you. It can absolutely be difficult to not only try to please the American people but also people around the world as well as those who are constantly critiquing your every move and decision such as reporters, Senators (Republican and Democrat), foreign delegates, the White House Staff, etc. It takes some real thick skin and patience to be bombarded with so much negativity seemingly every day at all once that any normal person would either resign on the spot and appoint the VP President, or take a vaction the first week in office.

Undeniably, there are jobs other than police officer, fire fighter, air traffic controller, waste managemant, President, etc. who need a much needed vacation. One could say teachers/professors, who spend their time molding young students minds, need the time off as they oftentimes don't get the respect and pay they want/deserve. The role of being a mother is unquestionably a job that every woman would love to have a vacation from for at least 6 months to a year away from their kids and just have time for yourself to relax, as well as, have "me" time. For the question can be asked to all the mothers out there, would you add your name to that sign up sheet?

Working at the Youth Center otherwise known as The Insane Asylum, I have spent the last 9 years working and going to school in the process. I never once took a vacation, which tells you one thing right there....I am a dedicated moron. In the past 9 years at the asylum, I've been hit in the head by every ball imagineable, almost been fired 4 times for doing something stupid, had arguments with 3 former employees, broke down 1 time due to stress, and been part of an employee rally to change things at the Asylum. After 9 years of working there I'm finally taking a vacation to get away from the insanity that "my kids" have given me to go spend time with family in Los Angeles, CA and you know what I have to say about that...its about time.

Saturday, November 26, 2005

Times Like These

Someone once said, ~Total self-esteem requires total and unconditional acceptance of yourself. You are a unique and worthy individual, regardless of your mistakes, defeats and failures, despite what others may think, say or feel about you or your behavior. If you truly accept and love yourself, you won't have a driving need for attention and approval. Self-esteem is a genuine love of self. Stop all adverse value judging of yourself. Stop accepting the adverse value judgments of others. Purge yourself of all condemnation, shame, blame, guilt and remorse.~ Let me ask you this question, did any past relationship(s) cause your self-esteem to a major blow to where you hide within yourself and keep the feelings you have for someone close to you.

Essetnially, a person's self-esteem is one of the most fragile next to one's own heart which carries your feelings and emotions. When it comes to past love and/or relationships one's self-esteem can be metaphorically beaten up to the point where its left black and blue, so to speak. Its a sad situation indeed when women, more so than guys, have their self-esteem toyed with/chopped down to size by a guy or guys who don't know how to treat them the right way. For any woman to experience that kind of degradation/humiliation which, in some ways, is like having the sun go down on you and your left alone in total darkness to stumble around within their own feelings, emotions, and heart.

If you think about it, when one's self-esteem is lost/misplaced, you permanently or temporarily lose parts of yourself that is considered unique, special, and beautiful. Undeniably, it takes a special someone who is honest and genuine to gradually liven up one's self-esteem to where it will hopefully be fully in tact. Its that particular tguy/girl who brings to life, as well as, give back something that was initially taken away, metaphorically speaking of course, from you. For the question can be asked, is there someone like this who is not only helping your heart heal but also gradually helping your self-esteem heal to where it eventually be at 100% capacity.

For a woman, there comes a point where one's smile will return also that was temporarily lost within not only your heart but also you your self-esteem as well, which inevitably be felt and seen by those close to you. Its that unmistakeable smile that brings out not just one's physical beauty but also one's inner beauty that gives you that proverbial kick in your step. In a sense, the darkness in which you were stumbling around in within your emotions, feelings, and heart is now bright as you are given a brand new day to where you can truly leave past hurts behind you. For its a clean slate within your emotions, feeling and heart as you walk the road of recovery side by side with someone who will potentially give you that fresh start.

In retrospect, when you suffer heartbreak that affects your self esteem you tend to feel sorry for yourself for suffering through that kind of pain. For you have to keep in mind though that it wasn't your fault to begin with, it was primarily that person's fault for putting you through your own emotional rollercoaster which you truly didn't deserve in the first place. In the end, its times like these that you're happy to know there is or will be someone special that will in a way help you learn to live again, learn to give again, and ultimately learn to love again within your own feelings, emotions, as well as heart which is a song by the late 1950's Blues Recording artist Peppermint Harris." When or if you have the time, listen to it and enjoy.

Thursday, November 24, 2005

To God Be The Glory

Ray Stannard Baker(David Grayson) once said, ~Thanksgiving is the holiday of peace, the celebration of work and the simple life... a true folk-festival that speaks the poetry of the turn of the seasons, the beauty of seedtime and harvest, the ripe product of the year - and the deep, deep connection of all these things with God.~ Let me ask you this question, what does Thanksgiving mean to you? Without a doubt, its a holiday that some, most, or all people enjoy as we spend quality time with family you have or haven't seen for quite some time. A family that is normal as can be when visiting separately, but when brought together craziness and hilarity ensues.

When it comes to past Thanksgivings, what made the festive holiday such an enjoyabe experience for you and your family? If I could venture to guess it would be the endless amounts of food to gorge on would be the humber one answer, second would be family time as you get the 411 on each other's lives, and watching sporting events would be the third, which would be mainly for the guys. Undeniably, when getting together with family that you haven't seen for awhile, there is a certain energy level that tends to rise when family is brought together as you see/hear it by the loud laughter and big smiles among the faces that you don't get to see on a regular basis.

As said before, the endless amounts of food is mainly what each of us look foward to. For some, most, or all of us we prepare our stomachs to gorge/stuff ourselves with such traditional foods like Turkey, Ham, sweet potato pie, pumpkin pie, mashed potatoes, and if you're a vegeterian that doesn't eat meat then you get Tofurkey. Being a Filipino, the asian flavor is added into the mix with Filipino foods such as lumpia (egg rolls), pansit, chicken adobo, and many more mouth watering delights. For the question can be asked, is reading this particular Yodaism making you hungry to the point you're thinking about taking a small piece out of the Thanksgiving meal planned for tonight? If so, be careful and if you're caught don't blame me.

If you think about it, the one place that tends to be strictly off limits before or during Thanksgiving is the kitchen. In the cook's or cooks' mind, the kitchen is considered the central military command and if anyting important is needed someone will be sent out with specific orders to retrieve said items or items. Depending on who's cooking the meal, the kitchen is considerded off limits to so called unauthorized personnel who are lingering about to get a bit or at least a taste of something, which is a bad idea trust me on this. We've all tried to sneak a bite/taste and ending up being whacked upside the head with a particular kitchen utensil such as a wooden spoon, spatula, a wooden rolling pin, whatever the object may be for you.

In the beginning of this Yodaism, I asked the question what does thanksgiving mean to you? For me personally, Thanksgiving means giving thanks to God for all the things has done for me in the past, present, and will do for me in the future. He provides me with food to eat every day, a job to pay my expenses as well as a place where I get to spend time and have fun with "my kids." BUT most of all He provided me with family and friends who love and care about me. Ultimately I am thankful for the prayers that he has answered and for those unanswered prayers, I know He will answer them in due time. In the end, on this day of thanks I simply say to God be the Glory, great things he hath done for me and hopefully for you as well.

~HAPPY THANKSGIVING EVERYBODY!~

Tuesday, November 22, 2005

In A Hearbeat

Crystal Rose once said, ~Love is a magical dream, existing forever in our minds.~ Without a doubt, love can be considered magical due to the fact that even though you don't know how it works, you just somehow know when meeting someone either for the first time or the second time around. The magic within something so simple and yet so complicated makes you want to truly experience with someone who has that so called magical energy surrounding him or her. An energy that can oftentimes be felt in a vibe, a look, a conversation, and/or a touch such as with a handshake or a kiss. Its that unexplainable energy you feel that can't be described with only words and you either go with it or deny it.

Let me ask you this question, is there anybody in your life that is sending/giving you that so called magical energy that you have felt before but its somehow feels different? However, due to pasts relationships you don't want to accept the feeling for the simple reason of not wanting to get your expectations high and your heart broken all over again. In any case, that magical energy can be revealed in the body language one knowingly or unknowingly shows/reveals to a potential relationship in the making. Body language such as the turn away/look back glance, way you smile, and the lean in while talking to that person are signals you quietly give off to someone but absolutely speaks volumes to others who see it clear as day.

Unfortunately, there are certain people who believe love is nothing more than a word that has absolutely no feeling or meaning behind it. In other words, a myth/illusion that was created in order to make men and women feel better so that you could hold on to that one tangible called hope. They further argue that love is not a feeling or an emotion but rather a decision he or she makes and companies such as hallmark are pulling on our so called heart strings to make the decisions for us. For its our own self esteem that tends to play a key factor as "experts" say that because love is about makes everybody happy, then love should you happy and in turn your self esteem grows. For the question can be asked, do you actually believe this?

When it comes to the magic of love, there comes a point where there is an inner struggle to keep your heart closed and to let it go freely. A struggle in which a sometimes difficult decision to either do what is easy and what is right for your own well being. Undeniably, its would be quite easy to just completely shut off the feelings you have for a person who potentially may be "the one" who will make you happy for a lifetime because, in your own mind, its better to not fall in love than to have your heart broken again. However, on the other side of that coin, you have to do what is right for your heart in order for it to heal and its just a matter of letting the right person who your heart genuinely and truly feels a gradual magical connection with.

In retrospect, every person wants love to be a magical story book dream that never ends to where we always have a happy ending. Yet, that isn't how love works and you simply have to learn the hard way rather than the easy way, which some, most or all or you have. Eventually, the nightmares of past relationships will fade as you meet that special someone who is truly worth dreaming about. Ultimately, the happiness and/or love you seek started as a lingering dream which has or will become a reality for you. In the end, the one place where that dream guy/girl is truly real is not found in one's eyes, not in a touch such as handshake or kiss, not in a smile, but found in a heartbeat and when you feel it, it honestly beats with love for you.

Sunday, November 20, 2005

The Broken Road

Somone once said, ~Its a long road when you face the world alone, when no one reaches out a hand for you to hold. You can find love if you search within your soul, and the emptiness you felt will disappear.~ If you think about it, our own heart can be considered a road in which each of us are traveling a metaphorical journey to find and/or meet that somone special who will permanently stop us from getting lost within it, not just physically but emotionally as well. For its when we all travel the proverbial highways and biways within our own heart you experiences the highs and lows of love or the feelings you have that lead up to falling in love. Let me ask you this question, how long have been traveling the lonely road within your own heart?

Without a doubt, it can be a lonely road as one hears and feels the bumps on the road of life, which oftentimes seems as if its going on forever or around in circles. Depending on how nig those bumps are they can be considered a representation of the moments of happiness/contentment one feels when meetings someone new and is inevitably interested in. Its those particular bumps, whether its brief or long term, that can give your heart a reason to beat faster as it hears and feels the beat of someone else's heart who is knowingly or unknowingly traveling the lonely road along side with you, which may or may not truly be felt from someone either within an instant, within days, within weeks, within months, and/or within years.

Unfortunately, there are times where you will encounter potholes that can most definitely make one's travel complicated, difficult, and/or uncomfortable. If you think about it, those so called potholes represent the times your trust and heart were broken to where there are pieces left scattered on the side of the road, so to speak. For its those broken pieces on the side of the road of life are the love/feelings that were once held by/for a particular someone but are now left untouched and unused, which is a sad situation indeed for a guy or girl who doesn't deserve that kind of hurt. A hurt so painful that you lose all feeling, emotion, and love to where you forget what its like to experience it all over again in your heart.

However, every so called pothole that is left on your heart will eventually lead you that long lost dream you've been wanted to come true. In some aspect, the signs have pointed or are pointing to where he or she is, but for reasons known or unknown you simply missed it, which happens or has happened to every person. Initially, we continue to go through the same emotions and feeling to the point of frustration that you so desperately want to experience something new and exciting. In a sense, your bad past relationship or relationships are compared to nothern stars pointing/leading you by hand to that special someone. For the question can be asked, do you know who that one person is who is asking/wanting you to take his or her hand?

Ryan Erickson said, ~The road to finding the "the one" is paved with a bit of promiscuity.~ In retrospect, on the road of life you will meet individuals who have that certain something that you enjoy and appreciate such as a sense of humor, a warm, kind heart, honesty, and many other character traits. In any case, we're never really traveling alone because God is our companion/guide and even though you can't see Him you simply have to close your eyes, look deep within your soul, and He's there. In the end, its by the grace of God that He blessed the broken road that leads you or already has lead you to that one person who is everything you ever wanted and more. Plus, its a songs by country music group Rascal Flatts.

Friday, November 18, 2005

By The Numbers

Adolf Galland once said, ~Sometimes numbers are the telling factor.~ For some, most, or all of you who have read a number of the Yodaisms that have been sent out. If you've read my early one's compared to the one's you've been reading recently there is a definite change in the overall structure but conceptually the ideas are still the same. Just to refresh your memory the title, quotes, and mood are the three key ingredients that bring it all together. Yet, the question remains, how may quotes have been used, which author(s) have been used and or quoted the most, which Yodaism would I like to redo, what three subject matters have been primarily talked about, and most importantly, which particular subject matter has been thought about the most.

In the early stages of writing these Yodaisms there any use of quotes because they were basically short thoughts. But as time progressed the Yodaisms started to progress as it got more and more on a deeper level in which it made you think, as well as, use your imagination. In my own thinking, the right quote is essential and authors such as Charles Dickens, Rainer Marie Rilke, William Shakespeare, Mark Twain, E.E. Cummings, Robert Louis Stevenson, C.S. Lewis, Leo Buscaglia, and Ralph Waldo Emerson were instrumental in making a Yodaism come together. Primarily 206 quotes have been used and when it comes to the author quotes most, 6 times, it comes from my favorite author Ralph Waldo Emerson.

Without a doubt, every Yodaism that I have written I have felt content in the finished product. However, there is one particular Yodaism that didn't really sit too well with not only myself but also other people as well. It was a Yodaism entitled Apple Of Your Eye in which that special someone was like an apple on a tree and the basic premise was asked how far are you willing to climb to be with that particular guy or girl on interest. It had the best intentions in being an ok Yodaism but it entirely went off into a totally different tangent. If I had to do it all over again, I would still use the same quote, but give it a new concept, as well as, new title "The Core" which may be done later down the road.

If you have been an avid read of the Yodaisms that I sent out and/or posted, you get three subject matters that are either from my own personal experience or what I observe around me on a semi-daily basis. The first subject is life and each one of us go through certain situations in life that are either similar or parallel each other's lives. The second subject is love and/or relationships that every person can relate to a little bit or a lot, which one can sympathize with because you may be going through what I tend to talk about. The third subject is my job at the Youth Center otherwise known as The Insane Asylum, which has given me some of the greatest material to talk about when it concerns "my kids".

In retrospect, there have been countless friends who have read the Yodaisms that I have sent out to and they in turn have sent them to their friends. For there have been a number of people who have emailed me saying that certain Yodaisms have gotten them through the toughest of times. In any case, the total number of Yodaisms, which includes this one, comes to 306 and the number will continue to rise because there are many untapped subject matters to talk about such as Karma. Ultimately, the subject of my job has been talked about 26 times, love and/or relationships 132 times, and life about 148 times. So, in the end, when you look at it by the numbers the subject of life wins out just a bit over love and far surpasses what I see/do at work.

Wednesday, November 16, 2005

Lie, Cheat, and Steal

The late Owen Hart once said, ~I find too often in the wrestling business, you just wrestle, get to the hotel, make your money. Sometimes I have to stop and remind myself to enjoy my life and not just rush through.~ The world of professional wrestling is a business that goes all year round and unlike sports such as baseball, basketball, football, etc. there is no off season. Essentially when you decide to become a professional wrestler you sign up to be away from home months at a time, which is a big sacrifce to make for not only yourself but also for your family. Primarily, you have to love what you do in front of millions of people, if you don't then you're in the wrong business.

In a business that fans, like myself, can make or break a wrestler by simply responding to a particular wrestling character that determines either longevity or back to the drawing board, so to speak. For those who aren't wrestling fans, you don't really have an understanding as to why fans like myself go nuts over grown mature adults wearing rediculous looks attire and hitting each other over the head with chairs. From a fans perspective, its mainly the entertainment aspect of it all as you can go through so many emotions such as anger, happiness, shock, spite. etc. and yet know that these guys are giving you an awesome show even though at times they may or may not be feeling that good emotionally, as well as, physically.

As said before, pro wrestlers don't get an off season and the injuries they suffer over the years take their toll. Its the price they pay for doing what they love to do and oftentimes the injuries they suffer happen while in the ring. Though I haven't seen it live, I witnessed on televison wrestlers such as Eddie Guerrero break their arm or Triple H suffer a serious possibly career ending leg injury and despite that they continued to to wrestle until the match has ended, which shows how devoted these guys are to their craft. Whether its bruised ribs, torn up knees, broken necks, or the simple bumps and bruises, these guys play hurt and yet they work past the pain to try to give awesome performances day in and day out.

Personally speaking, I have been a wrestling fan for almost 21 years and I grew up watching wrestlers such as Hulk Hogan, Ric Flair, Sting, The Legion of Doom, and many more. I couldn't see any other profession that these guys are suited for other than wrestling, how about you? Undeniably, wrestling fans aren't stupid because we know that its scripted not fake but despite that fact we watch anyway because its pure entertainment. In what business can you kidnap a person's wife or try to run someone over with a car and not get arrested for it. Its the passion they give for the wrestling business that keeps us watching and wanting more every week.

In retrospect, when you speak of passion for the business Eddie Guerrero had tons of passion burning within his heart to where he was known as Latino Heat. He grew up in the wrestling business and wrestled with his own demons as well. E.G. passed away Sunday, which shocked not only fans but his friends/wrestlers and family as well. He was humble, had charisma, talent, personality, but most of all he had a big heart. I'm going to miss seeing the three amigos, the frog splash, the way he tried to get the upper hand, but most off I'm going to miss him coming out in the lowriders. In the end, Eddie Guerrero stole all our hearts, which is fitting in a way for a man who lived by a creed that will live on forever for evert wrestling fan and that creed was lie, cheat, and steal.

Tuesday, November 15, 2005

A Special Message

Doc Childre once said, ~With the guidance of your heart, you can make quality decisions and your life will be more fun. Being alive in the heart is what makes life worthwhile. When you are in touch with your heartfelt emotions, you find your true core values and enrich your life.~ There comes a point where the feelings and emotions you have within yourself need to be expressed, which can make a person feel a whole lot better in the long run. The feelings and the emotions each of us go through oftentimes need to be expressed so that one can not only have piece of mind, but also a good night sleep. Essentially, its considered therapy and the way to do it is to honestly and truthfully speak from the heart to a particular someone and what I would say would go something like this.

~There's not many people in this world who I can feel comfortable being around and yet absolutely nervous to the point blabber like a moron, which you probably have heard firsthand. I've had a lot on my mind/heart which has been feeling heavy for quite some time and yet when I began writing this down, it started to feel lighter as each word is being written down. Plain and simple, you make me smile not because of your physical beauty but rather the beauty that you don't see/show that exudes within you that I see with my own eyes. There have been times where I just wanted to walk up to you, tap you on the shoulder, and tell you right there how I feel; but I stopped myself because I felt it wasn't the right time.

Without a doubt, the light in your eyes shine brightly whenever I look at you and wonder if they will shine brightly in my direction. If you, at some point, were to ever look into my eyes, you will see the feelings and emotions that I have been holding on to. Its those feeling and emotions that have been expressed without even saying a single word, which you may or may not have picked up on. You have been a person that I truly consider a friend but right now I am walking my personal bridge towards you in hopes that you are standing there and not another bridge walking the other way. Its this walk which I am talking that hopefully will not lead me to be so afraid that I freak out, climb over the side, and jump.

Thinking about it, each of us are considered gamblers in a way but we don't gamble with money; for we gambling wih something much more vauable than money and that is with the human heart. Its a risk that we are willing take as one places all their cards on the table and let it ride, in a manner of speaking. However, its that uncertainity in which that person may not feel the say way you do, which is totally understandable but at least he or she knows how you feel and you meant every word that has been said. For the back of one's mind, you truly have no idea what type of guy/girl that person is looking for and what his/her past relationship(s) were like but we are willing to take a chance because, in my opnion, that's considered a once in a lifetime opportunity that may or may not ever open again.

In retrospect, I'm standing at the so called door of opportunity which you are standing behind and this point I am knocking on it. Whether or not you decide to open the door and ask me to come in is all up to you and you alone. You may be thinking to yourself that I'm making a fool of myself, but hey its worth it. Look, I may or may not be the guy who you would like or want to be with in the end but really what matters most is the happiness you seek and deserve with a guy that not only makes you smile on the inside but also on the outside as well. Ultimately, I don't regret what I have said to you because they come from the core of my heart and in the end, this has been a special message from me to you.~

Sunday, November 13, 2005

Here I Stand

Someone once said, ~Friendship is the bridge between lonely and loved, between a glance and a gaze. It stretches from the fog into sunshine, hopelessness into faith, between despair and joy. It crosses the chasm from hell to heaven, from God to man, and from you to me.~ Essentially, there is an in between place that every person has been in before or is in now, which like the above quote is considered a bridge where we basically stand smack dab in the middle. For that metaphorical bridge can most definitely represent a person's heart as it "stands" there in the middle deciding on which direction to take when it pertains to a special someone. Let me ask you this question, how many of you are standing in the middle of your own personal bridge as we speak?

If you think about it, a person can spend so much time walking/running one's metaphorical bridge that he or she has no earthly idea where they are going. Its like chasing after a dream, so to speak, that has seemingly gone on for a lifetime. We all know or have some idea who we want to be with and yet there is that relentless voice in the back of one's mind that is telling you its a bad idea. For those initial seeds of doubt can lead a person to go back and forth not only within your heart but within your emotions as well. Let me tell you something, its not a fun experience whatsoever being in that kind of endless wandering back and forth leading to absolutely nowhere, which is a place that you never want to be in, trust me on this.

Without a doubt, when it comes to potential and/or signifant relationships the bridge that every person is standing on can be a long tedious trek as we look at the vastness of an ongoing road. For there are primarily two directions in which we all have looked or are looking at and its those two directions that are a representaion of the past and future, with ourselves standing in the middle which repesents the present. A present, where each one of us are teeter tottering within our own heart to either stay back or move forward but due to one's fears it makes you stay back not letting you move forward to whoever that person may be that is either standing up close or far beyond the road ahead.

There comes a point when you stand on your own individual bridge, certain things tend to mean alot more than it did in the past. We've all simply glanced at the water reflected sun when crossing a bridge but never really took the time to really look at it. However, when you start gazing into that water reflected sun you start seeing the calming beauty of it all as things start to make sense for you, which makes one's journey that much more enjoyable. For the heavy fog that's been clouding one's direction and mind has initally been lifted to where the hopelessness and dispair that you feel eventually turns to faith and joy. Yet, the question remains does that person feel the same way or is he or she on a different bridge and going in a different direction?

Gillian Anderson's character Dana Scully(X-Files) once said, ~Well, it seems to me that the best relationships--the ones that last-- are frequently the ones that are rooted in friendship. You know, one day you look at the person and you see something more than you did the night before. Like a switch has been flicked somewhere. And the person who was just a friend is...suddenly the only person you can ever imagine yourself with.~ In retrospect, I've stood on my personal bridge many time before, but I found myself simply walking away knowing who was beyond it due to my own fears. In the end, I find myself standing at that bridge again in which I say/think to myself its here I stand once again, now which direction do I take and my answer...I'm not going to walk away this time.

Friday, November 11, 2005

Home Is Where The Heart Is

Rainer Maria Rilke once said, ~Believe in love that is being stored up for you like an inheritance, and have faith in this love that there is strenth and a blessing so large that you can travel as far as you wish without having to step outside it.~ In some aspect, love can be considered a destination in which every person is traveling or has traveled to and for some its a destination that one has been traveling on for quite some time. For its when a person finally reaches their intended destination, it sometimes or oftentimes seems as if there is nobody truly genuine to greet not only yourself, but you're own heart as well. In a sense, its like you're stranded in a foreign, but oh so familiar territory with your passport(heart) in hand.

If you think about it, a passport is considered one of the most important documents to have because it identifies who you are when entering/leaving a country. We've all traveled or planning to travel to places known or unknown and myself being at one time a military kid my passport was stamped traveling to such places as to the place of my birth the Philippines and Puerto Rico. In any case, like a passport, our own heart identifies who each of us truly are on the inside and no amount of physical changes to one's own face cane hide your true identity from people who know, love, and care about you and I. For its those people who have stamped your heart in some way, shape or form that had or still have an impact on your life.

Without a doubt, a person can rack up some major frequent flyer miles to new, interesting, and exotic places. In a way, our own heart can rack up some major frequent flyer miles, in a manner of speaking, as one metaphorically travels or tries to travel a whole new world in a place that is oftentimes or sometimes difficult to open up. Yet, its within our own heart that one has always been ready to venture to something or to someone but for reasons known or unknown there are or were problems that prevented you from boarding, so to speak. Let me ask you this question, is there a person who is potentially holding your passport that you truly want to get his or her stamp of approval and have him or her enter your heart?

Unfortunately though, there are times where one's passport gets rejected not once but several times to where it can make a person lose interest in never seeing what is in his or her heart. For it can also come to the point where the decision is made to put away one's passport to never be used again, like your heart. Essentially, the feelings and emotions one has for a particluar either in one's past or present, can be either stored or hidden away, which can be the most difficult thing a person can ever d when someone he or she is truly interested in. For the question can be asked, how many times have you put away your passport never to be used again, but as the asying goes never say never?

Marvin J. Ashton once said, ~Love is a vehicle allowed to travel without limitations.~ In retrospect, when it comes to the love you have in your heart, one should never hide it or put it away for safe keeping like a passport. The reason why is that you never know when you will meet someone that will take you on a journey that you weren't prepared to go on, which nobody ever really is. Ultimately, its just a matter of showing/opening your passport(heart) little by little until you truly feel comfortable completely opening it. In the end, when you do finally open your heart to someone without any limitations holding you back, that once foreign territory in your heart is now a place you can truly feel comfortable living in, which feels like home and as the old saying goes home is where the heart is.

Thursday, November 10, 2005

Crazy Like A Fox

Charles and Ann Morse once said, ~The history of our grandparents is remembered not with rose petals but in the laughter and tears of their children and their children's children. It is into us that the lives of grandparents have gone. Its is in us that their history becomes a future.~ Without a doubt, the conerstone of one's family is the grandmother and/or grandfather because they are considered to be the matriarch/patriarch who have been through and seen it all. Some amazing stories can be told by one's grandparent(s) as they share/reveal things that can either make you laugh, cry, or become totally speechless to where you not only learn something new but get closer to him, her, or them. Let me ask you this question, when was the last time you spent quality time with your grandma, grandpa, or both?

Big momma/poppa, Nanay/Tatay, Mammy/Pappy, Grams/Gramps etc. whatever the case may be, people from every walk of life call their grandparent(s) by a certain name that one either destinguishes him, her, or them by as a child growing up or through tradition. It can be somewhat of a comical situation to not only hear people say it but also witness firsthand the way a person acts around their grandparent(s) depending on whether or not they hear or have heard some upsetting news about their grandchild/grandchildren. If you think about it, parents can be disappointed in their kid(s) and he, she, or they would probablyshrug it off in a nanosecond. However, to have one's grandparent(s) be disappointed in you can be a tremendous blow to not only you but to him, her, or them as well.

When it comes to one's grandparent and/or grandparents there should be always be absolute respect shown towards them because they truly deserve it. In my own thinking, if a person shows respect, that will carry over when each of us become a grandparents as they show respect towards us, which is what you want to teach your kids when or if you have some someday. Being part of a filipino family and the culture, as a kid, or in your 20's, or in your late 40's when you see a grandparent the proper respect given is to take that person's hand and touch it to your forehead. Yet, its not limited to blood relatives, because I've seen my own friends do it with my own grandmother and that's simply cool in my book.

One of the many advantages of being a grandchild is receiving money for such events as one's birthday, graduation, or just because he, she, or they love us. It can warm and touch a person's heart that a person who may or may not have much to give is willing to give out of their own pocket because they love us and that makes him, her, them happy. Though one may not at times show that love due to one's own hectic life, its nice to reciprocate that love back by doing something special back such as giving a card, a dinner on you, or just simply a hug, which can be considered the best gift a person can ever give. For the question can be asked, when was the last time you gave your grandma and/or grandpa a hug and is it a hug that has been long overdue?

In retrospect, I never really had the chance to meet both my grandfathers due to them passing away, but my dad's mom I got the chance to spend a months with her before she passed away due to cancer. It was a sad but happy time because she accepted God as her Lord and savior before she passed away My grandmother, my mom's mom, is 83 years old, had 10 wonderful kids, and is the one of the craziest/funniest people I know because you see every time she sees either me or my brother she is shaking us down for money(quarters) as if she is in the mafia. Do you have a grandmother like this? In the end, whether its your grandparent or mine in our eyes their crazy like a fox; but its a good kind of crazy because when they eventually pass on he and/or she will remembered with laughter rather than sadness.

Tuesday, November 08, 2005

Here's To You(To All My Friends)

What's up boys and girls! Let me first say that this won't be your typical Yodaism that I usually send out because I'm directly speaking to you guys. Secondly, this won't be "Yoda" speaking to you it will be me, plain ole' Dante that you've gotten to know and grown to love...hopefully. Anyways, about 9 years ago I started a journey that began after I graduated High School in 1996 and it wasn't until 2 years ago that I started sharing my thoughts with friends and so far you've enjoyed them. Why am I telling you this? Well because after the 1st Yodaism there were 298 that came right after that and now this Yodaism marks the 300th edition. So, what better way to say thank you than to give a shout out to all my friends.

To my friends in myspace and friendster: Thank you for not deleting me from your friends lists and may we have a great cyberspace friendship for years to come. To Ed, you and I have known each other since back in our Bellview Middle School, as well as, the Fil-Am days. Now that you're retiring from being a publicist, come back to the place where it all began for you which is Pensacola. To Michelle Haro, I wish you best of luck in finding the guy that will make you truly happy one day, plus I stick by all that I said about you whether it be mostly right or wrong. To Ashley, I'm glad you found the guy of your dreams and may it last a lifetime. Oh, one more thing keep on writing because a piece of me truly rubbed off on you.

To the asylum crew past and present. You guys have not only been my friends and current/ former employees, but you've also been like family. When I first started at the asylum 9 years ago, I was a quiet, wet behind the ears 19 year old kid who. BUT that all changed after a verbal fight between 3 former co-workers who had me so angry that my best friend had to take me outside and cool me off. From that point on, I changed it was a change for the better. To Germaine, Val, and Rose you ladies brightened up the asylum. To Ms. Angie and Ms. Cindy, I consider you two mentors who taught me to be a leader. To Cheryl, a big oohra to you. To the asylum brotherhood knuckle ups and heads to you guys. But most of all to Ducky and Biggie, my running buddies from the start, you both are and will always be my bros.

To the PCC filipino posse: ka guys ay pag-araal mag-anak. Frank, ako pag-araal iba kapatid na lalaki at Rebecca, ako pag-araal ka ang maliit kapatid na babae atipan ng pawid akin kapatid na lalaki at ako lagi magkulang. sa ang pinoys maibigan Frank, Alex, Dave, Jepoy, Jahmai, Bryan, busbusin panguluhan nods at buko ng daliri ups sa ang kapatiran. sa ang maganda pinays maibigan Maiza, Jek, Airish, Barbie, Blessing, Joy , at ang lalong nakararami lahat Lyrisse; ako naisin ka talunin naisin at true happiness sa lumapit mo daan. ang pinto ay lagi buksan at akin bahay I'll iwan ang sindihan sa dahil sa ka. pagayon ako sabihin kumuha a malaki puso, marami ibigin at mayo ang panginoon basbasan bawa't isa at bawa't isa ng ka. kapayapaan lumitaw!

Special shout outs to the S4LP, GH Nation, and to "my kids". To the S4LP, you guys are a part of my past, which has seen its good times and bad times. To the GH nation, you were guys that actually read what I wrote/sent to you two where many of you actually printed them out and kept them which I do greatly appreciate. To "my kids", thanks for giving me great stories that have made people laugh and cray. To everybody, I've said many times before to those who are asking and have asked for my advice, when matters of love/life get complicated simply follow your heart and it will hopefully lead you in the right direction. To all my friends, as well as, those I forgot to mention, here's to you and in the immortal words of 90's pop culture icons Bartles and James I simply say thank you for your support.

Sunday, November 06, 2005

Anything Is Possible

Someone once said, ~There are 3 great things in the world. The fist thing is for you to love someone. The second great thing is for someone to love you back and the third greatest thing is for the first and second thing to happen at the same time.~ Without a doubt, love is considered the single most powerful entity that one person can have for another. Its the driving force that keeps a person going even though one may not physically be strong enough. If you think about it, the power it has, whether it is given or received, can and/or will make a person physically, mentally, and emotionally stonger when it comes from someone that truly and genuinelly loves/cares for you. Let me ask you this question, how many of you have someone in your life that loves/cares about you with all your heart and vice versa?

We all have people that we love such as family and friends, but when it comes to that someone special there is a much greater love for him or her. A love that oftentimes can't be explained and yet no amount of explanation can describe how a human being feels for another. Usually, there are no words to explain/describe how you feel for that particular person, you just go with what's in your heart and soul to where you let it speak for you. Each one of us have talked with people or someone who when asked about him or her, one's facial expressions just brighten up and they witness this firsthand. Let me give you this challenge, if you truly love somebody try not to smile when you talk about him or her and see how you do.

Essentially, its quite easy to love someone with all your heart but to have that somone love you back cn be considered at times difficult. For those who are living the single life, like myself, you want to meet that one person who will love you unconditionally with every fiber of one's being. Yet, that love can't be forced to where you make that person love you which is a deluded perception that can be taken too far, but I digress. For the love I'm speaking of has to be reciprocated back and all a person has to do is be there for that person as a friend first. Eventually that friendship turns into appreciation, that appreciation turns into like, that like turns into the love you always wanted not only in your life, but in your heart and soul as well.

For some, most or all people it took only one shot for love to come his or her way, which can also be said for the other person as well. Unfortunately, for others it has taken several shots to find/meet the love that is absolutely perfect, even though it isn't at times considered perfect. Its a whole lot of hard work, patience, communication, committment, trust, honesty, but most of all a sense of humor when things in life just seem overwhelming that you can simply laugh at it together, which I was recently told. In a sense, that is the beauty of a long lasting love that is found in someone you call your best friend when no matter how mad, frustrated, crazy, insane you get with each other he or she will be at your side forever and always, till death do you both part.

This past Sunday, two couples celebrated the bonds of marriage as well as the bond of friendship as well. The first couple celebrated their 44th wedding anniversay and the second only a mere 40 years together which to me is longevity my friend. As to be expected, there was not a dry eye in the house as the couple who celebrated their 40 anniversary renewed their vows with not only the eyes of the Fil-Am Church family watching but also with eyes God watching as well. How many people can truly say that they've found the person they're going to spend the rest of their lives with and like I said in a past Yodaism, all it takes if you are truly lucky is just one look. In the end, if two people can meet each other, fall in love, and have love last 40 years or more then anything is possible for a guy like me and for you as well.

Saturday, November 05, 2005

She's The One

Someone once said, ~Throughout life you will meet one person who is unlike any other. This one person on could forever talk to. They understand you in a way that no one else does or ever could. This person is your soulmate, your best friend. Don't let them go, for they are your gaurdian angel send from heaven about.~ Ifs a funny thing about life, we meet so many people in our lifetime that we may or may not remember the names that go with the faces. Its those faces that we all pass by on a semi-regular basis whether its a complete stranger or the people we know, care about, and/or love. There comes a point, while on our journey where you will meet that one person who will, has given, or is going to give you a reason to smile and keep that smile on your face.

Let me ask you this question, have you met or encountered someone who totally gave you or is giving you a new and/or different perspective on the way things are seen. Seen through the eyes of that person who somehow can see not only through your eyes, but also see into your heart as well. Its that person who can share, reveal, and/or bring to surface certain truths about yourself, life, and love that we all have or are going through, but really couldn't put it into words. Its a rarity these days to meet someone like this who is truly genuine that you don't don't question the smile he or she gives you, which is oftentimes cause for concern due to the fact you don't know what that person's true intentions are.

For a woman, its hard to meet a guy that sets your own doubts aside when bad past relationships have them playing it safe with their own heart. Essentially, its hard to trust themselves in opening up to a guy that quite possibly could possibly bring her to that deep dark place within one's heart and soul that has been like a sanctuary which keeps not only her anger, frustration, and bitterness but also the love she wants to truly share a give, but is afraid to. For its her own heart and soul that isn't fully whole as there are missing pieces that have been metaphorically taken away by a guy or guys who at one time gave a reason for her to smile only to give her a reason to have that smile, as well as, her heart and soul die.

Without a doubt some, most, or all women have that empty feeling inside that it probably makes them sad/miserable to see people she knows and is friends with have relationships that are filled with friendship, love, communication, and that key word again trust. Let me tell you something, its not only women who feel this way but guys feel this way as well and its a feeling that can make you sick to your stomach and no amount of pepto bismol will make it ever go away. In a sense, women can feel like she has lost her way by forgetting how to love again, and come to the point that she is no longer able to shed anymore tears. For the question can be asked of you ladies, how many of you have felt or are feeling this way, how has that feeling lasted, and is there a guy in your life right now that has your heart potentially smiling again?

There is a thought that I probably would be safe to say that a woman wrote which says:~Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will stay awake just to watch you sleep. Wait for the guy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends. Wait for the one who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you. Wait for the one who turns to his friends and says, "...that's her.~ Ultimately, every woman will meet or already has met that guy who sees what she doesn't see or want to see about herself and in the end that guy will say either in his head or to his friends she's the one.

Friday, November 04, 2005

Time For A Change

Someone once said, ~Dependability is being trustworthy. If you are dependable, you are believeable and reliable. A dependable person persists or endures in a responsibility until the job is complete.~ In life, whether its personal or professional, dependability is key when it involves the people we know, hang with, care about, are involved with, are related to, and/or work with on a semi-daily basis. Essentially, its that key word called trust that you have with a person or a group of people who will not let you down when life gives you tough challenges. Let me ask you this question, who do you know that you is absolutely dependable to help you in any way, shape, or form at a moments notice?

Without a doubt, dependability and friendship go hand in hand as you trust that friend or group of friends to have your back. Yet, that dependability can be tested as one can be taken for granted for being the go-to-person when someone needs or wants something. Such needs or wants are many and a ride which are the two most significant things that a friend can overstep on. We all have friends that borrow money who we trust/depend on to pay back the amount in due time, which he or she can try to avoid depending on the tyoe of friend one hangs with. This can also pertain to a person's ride as well to where a friend/friends continually take advantage of your generosity, which can be limited.

When it comes to potential and/or significant relationships you want a person who one can depend on to be there for you even when that person is there without even being asked. For its that selfless act of kindness/love that is rare to find these days in someone who you want to spend the rest of your life with and yet you somehow find the Mr./Ms. Wrongs of the world. Its a sad situation indded for a woman when a guy she trusts/depends on to be her steady anchor and to catch her when she fall doesn't, which can mentally and emtionally bruise her deep within her heart. For the question can be asked, when it came to bad past relationships, who was that person or persons that you thought you could depend on to be there for you but failed you.?

When talk about dependability it can oftentimes be associated with a certain well known establishment and the employees who work there which includes management. Whether its services such as car repair, fast food, construction, accounting, etc. whatever the case may be, we all want the absolute best from them as possible. For a company such as Enron, which was billed by Fortune Magazine as 'America's Most Innovative Company' for 6 straight years(1996-2001), had many investors trusted and depended on them to keep their money safe and well protected, but unfortunately that did not happen as Enron managers/executives took the money, retired early, and sold company stock before it went belly up. Many jobs were lost and sizeable portion of people's retirement funds ruined all because of greed.

Working the asylum for the past 9 years, I along with my best friend have been considered the two most reliable and dependable guys working there. Guys who primarily break our backs for the asylum day in and day out and we don't ask for the recognition for it because in our minds we do it for the kids. Not to sound egotistical or anything, but for the most part, we're the backbone of the asylum and whenever there is some event, such as The Blue Angel Air Show, the two people that management usually come to first are us. For they think we will always say yes, but not this time due to the fact we feel burned out and overworked. In the end, you sometimes just have to put your foot down and say enough is enough, its time for a change.

Those Were The Days

Ann Fairbairn once said~A man cannot cast aside his childhood, though he run from it as he would the devil. He may make of it a burden under which to stumble and fall, or a shield to hide behind, or he may make of it a tool. One of the best things to keep close and look back on is our own childhood as we remember certain aspects of it that you really enjoyed. As said before, television was a big part of my childhood that ruled in the 80's, which I would gladly relive again if it were humanly possible, but I digress. When it comes to our childhood, a person can talk with others and find out if he, she, or they did the same things you did, but in a different way. Things that if you suggested that person do now either with you or alone, he or she may actually do it.

Let me ask you this question, did you ever in your childhood wear a fanny pack? For it was considered a fashion accessory for girls, but for boys it was something to keep their junk in like pencils, cards, and stuff. Essentially, it was a portable storage unit in front that fit around your waist that you could wear either in front of you, to the side, or the back of you. Personally speaking, I have one somewhere collecting dust a black Nike fanny pack that was used consistantly back in the day when no fear t-shirts were the thing to wear and bmx biking was the extreme sport to be in or watch. To be perfectly honest, I had one because everyone else had one so basically I was considered a follower and I would probably wear it again just to do it.

Without a doubt, each of us wore friendship bracelets and the more bracelets you had on your wrists the more friends you supposedly had. For the most part, you either knew someone or were friends with someone who made them and got the proverbial hookup, so to speak. Personally speaking, my friend back then Stacie Allen made a black and white one for me that I wore and never took off. Initially, the only way for it to come off was either it was old and fell off or your mom told you to cut it off due to a pungent odor coming from it. For the question can be asked to the ladies, did you ever make them and if so, did you make any profits to those that weren't considered your friends?

One the best recreational activities that mainly boys like myself participated in back in the day was pencil fighting. It was considered a sport of champions which tested the durability of one's pencil against the durability of another kid's pencil. There was strategy and a bit of underhandedness to the whole thing as you would try to get the upperhand by doing things such as taking the eraser out, flatting the metal end, and using it to your advantage which I did. Hey, it got the job done and to tell you the truth it was a lot of fun even though I did suffer many pencil casualties playing the game. Let me tell you something, if someone challenged me to a pencil fight right now, I would do it in a heartbeat.

In retrospect, there are just some things in our childhood when we look back on them the kid inside us just smiles. Just go back, look at your middle school yearbooks, and have a fun time look at what fun you hopefully had back then with the people who are either were or still are friends. Hey, you may even find out that your future best friend of 9 years went to the same middle school you did and not even know it. For the nostalgic feeling you get when look back at good times with your friends makes you wish that the hands of time could turn back for either a day or a week and relive it with one's current memories included. In the end, when you take a look back at the things you wore or did back then, you simply sigh and say with a smile on your face, those were the days.

Thursday, November 03, 2005

Why Not

Arthur Christopher Benson once said, ~Because of a friend, life is a little stronger, fuller, more gracious thing for the friend's existance, whether he be near of far. If the friend is close at hand, that is best, but if he is far away he is still there to think of, to WONDER about, to hear from, to write to, to share life and experience with, to serve, to honor, and to admire, to love.~ If you think about it, there are many things to wonder about that you just have to ask those tough questions. Questions such as: Why is the sky blue? What is the meaning of life? Where does your lap go when you stand up? Why do hot dog buns come in a package of 6 when hot dogs come in a package of 8? BUT the big question to wonder about is why does liking/loving someone feel so good and yet hurt so bad?

Essentially, when it comes to liking or loving someone, you wonder why we go through what each of us go through. Undeniably we're all glutton for punishment when you're taking the chance to put not only yourself out there but also to put you're own heart out there as well. In some aspect, one's heart can take hit after hit, somewhat like a piniata, from people who one thought cared enough about them not to metaphorically stick a knife in their own heart. For when he or she walks away, you are left with your heart bleeding with emotions that you try to stop/ control but can't and the only thing left to do is let the tears fall where they may, which is the best thing a person can possibly do in that particular situation.

For those who are living the single life, like myself, you tend to wonder if there is someone who is thinking about you, which can be considered somewhat egotistical on one's part. When it comes to potential relationships, if any, there is an uncertainty as to whether or not that a particular person is thinking about you. Without a doubt, we all have been or are going though situations where you wonder what thoughts are going through the mind of him or her to the point where you start to drive yourself completely crazy. In all honesty though, knowing or finding out that someone is thinking about you, in a non creepy sense of course, give a person hopefully a special feeling inside to where he or she is truly flattered.

Unfortunately, that uncertainty one experienced, is experiencing, or will experience keeps a person continually wondering/guessing a what that person's life was life before you met him or her. For the question can be asked was his or her life filled with seemingly great relationships or relationships that left a person burned to the point he or she is scared to open one's heart again. It can work both ways as a person takes a chance with one's heart and wonders if that door of opportunity will either be opened or closed shut. Essentially, its something that everybody wonders about when we meet someone who totally intrigues us to where you genuinely want to get to know more about that person on a more personal, emotional, spiritual, and intellectual level.

William H. Sheldon said, ~There are those much more are people who never lose their curiosity, there almost childlike wonder at the world; those people who continue to learn and to grow intellectually until the day they die. And these usually are the people who make contributions, who leave some part of the world a little better off than it was before they entered it.~ In retrospect, there will always be wonder/curiosity as to why liking and/or loving someone can be considered easy, but in reality difficult. Ultimately, a person will oftentimes ask and wonder why liking/loving someone has to hurt, has to be so frustrating, has be so complicated when its someone you like/love; but then you stop asking why and realize why not because in the end, it gives you that sense of purpose to not quit and to go for it will all your heart.

Wednesday, November 02, 2005

A Whole New World

George Elliot once said, ~What greater thing is there for two human souls than to feel that they are joined together to strengthen each other in all labour, to minister to each other in all sorrow, to share with each other in all gladness, to be one with each other in the silent unspoken memories. I like not only to be loved, but to be told that I am loved.~" Living in a world that has billions of people on it, you can't help ut sometimes feel alone even though you may be surrounded by friends and family who care about you enough to help you through the tough times. Times, in which world you're living in, as well as, the world in you're heart can spin out of control to a point where you're left with torn pieces that may or may not be repaired.

Without a doubt, a person who you once considered you're everything, your world suddenly stops turning. For the world that you once knew metaphorically crumbled from underneath/around you as that once stable foundation, which solidly supported your heart, now lies in rumble with your own heart underneath. Yet, even though that particular guy or girl no longer has you in his or her heart, you have unwanted emotional pieces of him or her still within your heart. Its truly a sad situation for a woman, as well as a guy, to let go of the love one has for that guy or girl who now has turned one's heart against you, which can totally stop your world from turning on its axis, so to speak.

For the most part, it takes awhile for your world to rebuild to the point where your own heart can be supported again. Its in that rebuilding stage you find reasons not to fall in love with someone who knowingly or unknowingly walks into one's life. Without a doubt, the pangs of a past hurt or past hurts left a person with empty spaces in his or her heart that when a possibilty of love might touch it again, those empty spaces cause you pain as you try to breathe in that person, in a manner of speaking. In some aspect, its like soaring higher for someone you want to be with, but the higher you keep going the more pressure build up and it gets harder and harder to breathe, which is how love is at times as one want to go to new horizons within your heart.

If you think abou it, its not only the pressure you feel to try to breath in someone new, but also the pressure that causes you're own heart to have an emotional connection as well. Its a tough task indeed for some, most or all women to re-open one's vault of feelings and emotions that you so wanted locked away in order not be toyed with ever again, which is most definitely understandable. For it takes someone who one feels absolutely comfortable with and is able to make you not only breathe easier but also brings back that once lost smile that was not only missing from your face but from within one's heart and soul. Let me ask you this question, how long a period of time did it take for you to let your emotions that you felt within your heart and soul take over with a certain guy or girl after suffering a really hard breakup within someone you truly cared about/loved.

Someone once said, ~To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world.~ In retrospect, a person will think that his or her world will never change as one will continue to let one's head decide instead of his or her heart due to past pain(s). However, that special someone will show up and take you on a so called magic carpet ride to where your heart and soul has been before, but never stayed long enough to touch the stars, as well as, see the points of view that weren't able to be traveled until now. In the end, that guy or girl will ultimately take you out of a world once filled with sadness and heartbreak to one filled with love and happiness that is considered to be for you a whole new world which is a classic song from the Disney animated movie Aladdin.