Alone In The Dark

Each one of us, while traveling down our proverbial journey of self, can become somewhat frustrated at certain aspects of one's life. The one aspect that every person can agree upon that can totally frustrate a person is seeking some kind of relationship with someone or being in a meaningful and significant relationship. Let me ask you this question, have you ever met someone that makes you so crazy and frustrated, but yet are attracted to him or her at the same time. I'm truly convinced that men and women were put on this Earth to mess with each other mentally to the point where we can go completely insane, but in a good way.

In some aspects, every person has hit that proverbial wall in which certain obstacles just get in the way. High hopes and/or great expectations are somewhat a given when a person thinks maybe that once lost smile can permenantly stay on his or her face. Yet, one's high hopes and/or great expectations turn into disappointment when that one particular person you are interested in lets you down. It's like having the door of opportunity slammed or closed in your face without ever actually stepping through it. BUT the question is, how long should a person stand at the door of opportunity before he or she should decide to walk away completely?

Women are truly an enigma, for they are mysterious and beautiful. Yet, they can be totally confusing at the same time which is like trying to put together a complete puzzle, but some of the pieces are missing. As a guy, we are glutton for punishment because even we know we may suffer hurt and disappointment, continue to try to walk through doors of opportunity knowing that it may or may not be closed. Doors of opportunity will open again, but the question remains, will that door of opportunity ever open if I close my eyes and step towards it? In a way it's like putting your finger in a light socket, you know you are going to get shocked but you do it any for the simple reason that socket is there.

Cy Eberhart one said, ~It is a fact of life that we find ourselves in unpleasant demoralizing situations which we can neither escape nor control. We can keep our morale and spirits high by using both "coping" and "hoping" humor. Coping humor laughs at the hopelessness in our situation. It gives us the courage to hang in there, but it does not bring hope. The uniqueness of hoping humor lies in its acceptance of life with all its dichotomies, contradictions, and incongruities. It celebrates the hope in human life. From one comes courage, from the other comes inspiration.~ Think about this, a person can continue to find humor in one's own siutation until he or she stops laughing completely.

About 8 years ago, if you had asked me if I was every ready to be in a relationship I would have laughed in your face. Since then, I have done a lot of growing and basically matured over these past 8 years. I've said before, I was a very different person than I was 8 years ago and for the most part, it was a change for the better. I clearly know that I have the potential to be a father, it's just a matter of finding that one missing ingredient, a women to share my life with. In retrospect frustration is like being alone in the dark; you have no idea where you are, but it only take that one ray of light to lead you in the direction one wants to go. Who is that ray of light for you?