Cross The Line

Every person will or has at some point stood at that proverbial line that is drawn in the sand of life. That represents times in which a person walks up to it, sees whose beyond that line, and one can make that decision to either walk away or step over that line. In some cases, it can also represent a friendship taken to the level into the unknown with that one particular guy or girl one has been friends with for quite some time. In some aspects, each of us, who are primarily single, have always been standing in front of the line that leads to someone; but never really made the decision to cross over it until he or she feels right.

Have you ever been in a situation where you constantly have your foot over the line but never actually stepped over it? Of course, we all have because in some way, we are in a battle with our own mind and heart. It's like doing a proverbial dance back and forth over that potential relationship line in which he or she is so close that person; one can actually hear him or her breathing. In any case, that inner struggle between heart and mind can ultimately lead to one thing which is writing a letter. A letter in which a person spills one's guts out, in a manner of speaking, and shares all that he or she feels about that person and doesn't regret every word of it.

Let me ask you this question, once that letter is written what did you do with it? For some people they continually revise it to say the right words that are coming from one's heart. For others, they sit holding it and contemplating whether to save it or simply tear it up. But for most people, he or she decides to give it that person but not actually to that person but in a place where one can find and read it. The last option is usually what one will come to and once that letter is out our hands, then its simply a matter of time. A time, in which one bites fingernails, paces up and down, or looks up that ceiling because that person has affected they way you sleep at night.

Ultimately, when that letter is read, a sense of awkwardness comes about for either one person or both people. In the mind of the writer of that letter, one can literally be freaking out inside and have that somewhat close feeling of how a heart attack feels, or simply beating your head against the wall to the point of either being knocked out or one's head hurts. One the other side of the line, once that reader of the letter has made the decision and knows what to do next. In some aspects, the reader can be considered the judge and/or jury and the writer is the defendant. Inevitably, the verdict will come down and that person's decision will be....

In retrospect, there comes a point where every person makes the decision to step over the line from friends to more than friends. Whether its talking to that person alone or writing a letter and placing it somewhere he or she can find it, its a decisions that nobody can turn back from. We've all been there, done that and even though you received total disappointment for your efforts, as well as, a "wounded" heart you kept going. You learned from what going through that experience taught you as you move on with not only your heart, but your life as well. In the end, for me personally, I have all my life to cross the line; a line that will eventually lead me to that one special person to spend the rest of my days with, whoever she may be.